Saturday, September 30, 2006
miss her alort...wanna c her ...
den recesss derhx time...go n eat at recess...den go up lerhx...den after skool...went 2 the classrm where she n her fren take exam...they oso finish at the same time n came out...den we went 2 canteen...didn't ssaw aloy they all ...felt wierdd...bt den anyway...ate wif her n her frenz they all ...lolx...eat n eat n eat...felt so touched...when so many of mi former frenz against miie...there's still new frenx hu r wif miie...nearly wanna cry sia...
den i saw aloy n weng hui they all comin bck fuming wif anger...wondering wad happened...den asked em...it's the 1st time i saw weng hui lookin at miie lik tt...n i knew smth was wrong...
suddenly...they all dashed 2 the parade square...den i saw aloy n weng hui they all crowding xinxun...omg...muz b wanna strt a fight lerhx...den i clenched mi hands tight...ready 2 help ...bt den i 4gt 2 buy lollipop...den i go buy lollipop 4 her 1st...
den i come bck...the coast was clear...den iask weng hui they all... xinxun really jerk narhx...serve him right tt evryone siding weng hui...tt moment...i was really shocked at hw great weng hui was...he's really a wise fren...as wise as an owl... n he's observation skills were as great as kindaichi lerhx...mine was a lil ant compared 2 his...
den i go 2 art...thought could finish prep work...bt mrs zaki say muz cut out evrything nicely again...siao...cuz i nv leave space 4 binding...sobx...den i nv stay 4 lantern festival...den went hm...den she told mi smth...which made mi v v sad 4 a long time...den cally sad too...den dunno hw 2 cheer her up sia...so failure...she cheered mi up alort in the past...n i can't do anythin 2 help her...
hais...
den this morning...chatted wif miss flyin hair...lolx...den go 4 hair cut ...den saw mi 2nd disciple...den go drink bubble tea n eat waffle as mi lunch ...lolx...den went hm...den finish bathing den mi mum qn mi hw i noe tt disciple derhx...hu i nicknamed him L...
den i say play bball derhx...den she say wad tt L's mum is an insane lai derhx...dun gt 2 close wif him ...or his mum will kill mi one day ...siao derhx...y shud i care wad his mum n family is...2 mi ...he's a normal guy...n is mi disciple...though he's a bit annoying at times n can b boastful too...
den mi mum ask miie 2 ask L 2 go hm n ask mi go out miself...restricting mi fren...siao derhx...he's nt a gangster...she nv ever qn bout mi fren b4 den juz bcuz of this pathetic guy's family bckground den she restrict mi frm being fren wif him...siao derhx...he's as gd quality as those other frenz tt she gav thumb ups...
den she tail us all the way...den till interchng den nv lerhx...siaol derhx...den mi nL took bus 2 yishun...it was really a long trip...omg...as long as a baby turtle goin bck 2 sea...
den i go there meet wenjie ...den we play initial d...lolx...omg...the whole thing is lik...played akagi wif wenjie...den win him n lead 100metres+...den he play zhen huan wif mi ...den it's lik nt favouring mi condition cuz i using fr!!!...lolx...bt den he won mi n lead lik 100+metres...den i played usui wif him...den i win him n lead by 400 metres i think ...wakaka...den he play tu ban wif mi ...siao derhx...played rain...den fr will turbo lag in rain...plus fc is a light weight car...driving fc in rain is commiting suicide...i noe sure lose derhx...haix...lost lik goin 200 lik tt ...he won n lead bout 190metres...
den we play one last final match at akagi...den i won...lead him 300+metres... lolx... den in the end...i win him thrice he win mi twice...so overall is i win... wahahaa......den i played one time 2 show him hw 2 play akagi...den we go hm lerhx...
den i go eat long john silver......hais...c L no $$$ 2 eat...lik v ppitiful...bt den mi no extra $$$ also lerx...
though i noe he's family bckground is bad...bt didn't noe he's mum abit mentally wad derhx...omg...so kelian narhx... bt den i tt time abit dun dare gt close him...cuz he gt pungent smell(smell of urine...)i ask him isit he urine on his pants accidentally den he say dun have nehx,...
i thought it was mi ...den keep smelling miself...bt dun have...den thought is i oversensitive...bt den alort of passengers on the bus oso cover their nose nehx...
omg...when i goin bck ...den i noe i was correct...i think he wet his pants lerhx...omg...
den i go bck hm...den wait 4 her 2 online den chat wif her...
wanna let her noe tt wo fei chang xiang ni...fei chang ai ni...ai dao wo yao feng lerhx....
bt den the FYE de period i think we can't c each other lerhx...cuz they finish exam early den can dismissed lerhx...sobx...hais...
shall end here lerhx...bb
plying basketball on 11:54 PM
Thursday, September 28, 2006
REVERSE...lolx...
lol...this morning...went 2 skool...sat at the usual place chat wif mi 1NC de fren again...keep chatting bout bball...wanna conquer there...wahahahars...nt tt kind of conquer...bt den ...dunno hw 2 say ...lolx...
den i go line up...den go bck class tt time arrange table...nth much happen actually...alll the way till skool end...lolx...den go n eat at canteen...den buy lolli 4 her...
lol...den went 2 do art...den i go 2 find mi frenz...den wait wif fontaine at canteen 4 the rest of em hu ask the teacher 4 help...took quite long...den suddenly...notice those rowdies go canteen...den thought they will behave rowdy again...bt shockingly nvr...dunno y ...thought smth was wrong...or mayb they nv really hate mi barhx...lolx...dunno much...bt den i oni noe tt 2 make peace wif em currently v difficult...
den mi frenz finally came down...den made some notes...den go hm...den i wait 4 her n siying de bus...lolx...
den i go hm eat sushi...lolx...den go play bball ...mi sis still the same sia...den mi uncle teach her triple threat position n advice her on nt goin dead end...
den mi uncle challenge mi 1 on 1...been waiting 4 it...didn't won him any once b4...lolx...
he use his patented lay up...releasing the ball at the mid point ...den i use reverse lay up...den ... hehx...wakaka...so fun ...finally did it ...bt den he seldom play bball derhx...bt den i keep playin...though finally did it ...bt den if he were 2 play more often ... he sure win derhx =(
den we go buy drinks den go hm...lolx...
den chat online wif her...lolx...
i realise tt nt much fren left...lol...those oni few frenz r either those i hang out wif after skool or those casual frenz lerhx...thus...muz tell em "ah li ka toh"...lol
shud have ended wif this...lolx... xxx aii taa xxx
bb...n thx those taggers...didn't noe they even noe hw 2 use it...bt they aren't tt dumb anyway...
plying basketball on 10:07 PM
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
it was fun ...haha...pee day...
hehx...2dae...morning...went 2 skool den tok wif mi fren(the 1NC derhx) again...den saw weng hui ...den greeted him ...den morning assembly den go line up...didn't saw her...wonder hw's she lerhx...den go reading period...den sit down n wanna slp ...joseph again didn't sit wif em ...instead he sat beside shannoz...haha...
bt den it all became the same again...wahahars...after tt reading period...lolx...
den at recess...accidentally bang someone narhx...den thought nth much bout it ...bt den when i walk away...den noe gort smth wrong lerhx...saw her when i go 2 study corner...den suddenly heard ppl behind callin mi ...didn't turn bck...bt den went 2 4th floor den i slower mi pace den it was...wahahars...2 mi is misunderstanding...bt den 2 em it's v big de prob...
those rowdies nearby den treating mi lik laughing stock...wahahars...bt den i admit it was funny barhx...i was behaving lik a mouse tt time...
anyway...went toilet alort 2dae...super urgent...lol...drank too much water lerhx...didn't get 2 really c her ...felt quite sad bout it ...wanna c her de smile...
den go art n all tt...omg...den after skool go eat wif weng hui n his frens...den bought lolli again...den i go art rm den she came n took lolli...den those rowdies sing song...omg...their song so nice larhx...even mr ho oso thought singapore idol come 2 yiss de art box ...or shud i say he was disturbed ...bt wasted...their singing so nice...shud go participate in singapore idol...nt being sarcastic...
den after doin art...neck v pain den go westmall eat dinner wif her n her frens...den we exchnged lollies...
deni go play bball at 304 de bball court...omg...mi stamina really v low...lik gt asthma lik tt...breathe in n out alort...omg....
den i go hm lerhx...den mi n her n alort other frenz chat...den i watch dragonball again...so nice narhx...actually it's so nice ...bt den lik v ol de show lerhx...
wo ai ta...=)
wanna b wif her all mi life...though it's quite Mission Impossible narhx...
bb...n thx those hu tagged...
plying basketball on 10:33 PM
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
days of reckoning 2 ... beating the odds...
2dae morning...went 2 skool quite early...took 157 den saw ms ng...lolx...greeted her...n 4 the second time in mi life...she greeted mi bck without having tt kind of lik i wanna eat her up tt kind of look...
lol...den i went 2 provision shop...den wanna buy starhub top up card...bt den didn't sell lerhx...den went 2 skool...den chat wif frenx...lolx...den bell ring den go 2 assemble lerhx...lol...though expected something rowdy...bt den didn't expect tt rowdiness...
went 4 reading period...lolx...the 1st n the last time joseph sat beside mi ...lolx...was touched when he said he didn't side anyone...n stayed middle 2 b frenz wif both...
den i felt so slpy 2dae...lolx...den saw weng hui alort of times again...dunno i gt 2 meet him so often ...saw her too ...lolx...saw her goin out of her humanities rm...den saw her when i havin recess(which mi counsilor hold mi bck ),n saw her at study corner...lolx..
den it's lik after skool...went outside 2 eat wif weng hui,he's fren n aloy...den those rowdies walked past...bt den they r juz childish...a small thing expand till bigger den the size of China...
den i go gib her lolli den go up do art lerhx...till bout 4 plus den go 2 buy top up card n eat Cornetto Choc Vanilla...oni $1...hehx...
den i went hm...so hpy ...wait wait wait n wait...lol...omg...muz thx all those ppl hu tag continuously...
lol...gonna cling onto her n nv let go ...i love her,lovin her, juz lik mouse love rice...
plying basketball on 10:02 PM
Monday, September 25, 2006
lol...u r mi stars...shining happily b4 mi ...
hehx...this morning...was late...doze off again mahx...den i quickly bath n went out...den i sms wif her...lolx...we sms till i in skool lik tt...lolx...saw amanda's hair...look pretty wierd 2 mi ...lolx...
den it rain...den after morning assembly went bck 2 class...den when i look down frm corridor...saw her class walkin by.. 2 humanities rm...den i lik so hpy 2 c her...hehx...
bt den she didn't seemed 2 reply mi ...mi english paper was quite ok...compared 2 others...
den i go 4 pe...didn't chng full suit 4 pe...cuz no mood to ...den i chat wif fontaine ...den i go bck 4 chem...another disappointing result...
den recess...den after tt went up again...math another one...i thhink i gonna faint lerhx...geog oso...omg...bt den i saw her b4 i go 2 study corner...so gd...=)
den went 4 chinese at AVA rm ...den i went up 2 art rm put bag den c her again...hehx...den i went 2 canteen chat wif aloy...she oso there...
den i ask aloy go outside wif mi ...den bought lolli 4 her...den bought oreo 4 miself...den went up...bt den teng they all wanna go lerhx...plus i nv bring stationery oso can't do ...so i nvr lorx...
den i go 2 find aloy they all ...saw weng hui ...we chat bout cars yet again...lolx...
den it's lik keep takin glimpse of her...catching evry moments of her...the ways she smile...the way she speaks...all b4 mi eyes...
lolx...den we went 2 west mall...was extremely close 2 her...den we went 2 library...den borrow alort of books...den heather lik angry wif mi cuz i dun tell her hu i lik ...wahaha...tt flying hair...lol... omg...they say she gt play mi favourite sport...hehx...so cool ...hehx..
lol...den she left 4 hm...den i went comic connection wif evryone else...den v funny...after tt we all go taste all the samples...except mi ...
den we bought jolly shandy n drink ...lolx...haha under cally's void deck...omg...lol...den it's lik so close wif her thru out mi day...felt mi temperature rising...pulse increasing...
lol...hehx...i really love her alort...she was super super close wif mi ...den i was so hpy...hehex...i really was super super hpy...
2dae might b the closest day we ever had 2gether...she goin 2 exam lerhx...wish she isn't stressed up..hehx...
muackz 2 her...i will wait n wait n wait...till the story begins 2 unfold...
buaix all reader...
plying basketball on 8:54 PM
Sunday, September 24, 2006
one of the most embarassed day of mi life...
this morning...woke up quite late ...cuz was too tired...
den i went online...den she wasn't...sobx...bt den later on she did went online...den had a gd chat wif her...she said tt...erm...smth ...which made mi v hpy...den she let her fren use her com lerhx...bout a few min or wad later...felix added mi n say wanna help mi ...hais...she break wif her stead lerhx...muz b sad...sobx...bt den she wasn't v down spirit according 2 her fren ...mayb becuz her stead dun treat her well den she lost feeling 4 him lerhx
den leslie suddely called mi n ask mi 2 play bball wif him...omg...he so gd sia...gt someone give him a free pointer indoor ball...so nice 2 use narhx...
den i go play bball wif leslie tt time...haha...still win him ...wahaha...den go buy bubble tea...lolx...den come bck de time...went 2 his hse den go yuan li hse there de bball court play lerhx...
den it's lik played wif some ppl ...omg...all solo sia...lik tt still wan mi perspire 4 nth...siao derhx...bt den i still played larhx...bt nv unleash mi full wad larhx...
den we go opposite court play ...den it's lik the players even more solo...i fed up den lik dun wanna defend...bt den when they pass ball 2 mi ...i will use mi full effort 2 score...
hehex...den played till halfway den cally ask mi go clement's b dae party...omg...i was sweating all over...so pai seh larhx...den lucky cally's mum n dad borrow mi clothes n i bath there...omg...so embarassing...
den i went in2 cally's room n listen 2 weng hui's stories...he's v mature norhx...more den mi ...haha...den we sat there 4 hrs...n took a few peeks at her...was v v hpy...lolx...den i went 2 eat mi semi dinner at cally's living rm den we go west mall there de mac eat lerhx...
weng hui chat wif mi all along...n i agreed wif wad he said...singaporeans always mock at ppl hu r stronger or weaker ...
den it's lik we chat bout alort...japan,history,racing...n alort more...omg...
lolx...
den after tt mi n felix went 2 aboard 187 n went hm...when i reach hm...iron mi clothes...den came online...actually can't de cuz mi mum confiscate mi computer plug...bt i plead her 2 return mi 4 awhile...bt sad thing is she wasn't online...i was way 2 late...haix...
den i sms her...
it was really hpy...de day...i gain alort of experience when playin bball...though i hurt mi left shoulder...omg...haix...n when i was wif cally they all...omg...i c her 4 so long...hehx...so hpy...
i wish tt she will noe tt i will wait 4 her de...there's no nid 2 rush wif anything wad so ever...
i will sty by her side if she nid ...n i will love her...(n i alrdy did..)
buaix...
plying basketball on 10:31 PM
Saturday, September 23, 2006
i still have a chance...!!!
lol...yesterday nite...it was so great...it's lik chatted wif her till lik errr...midnite...lolx...
den i woke up at 7 plus...so early sia...oso dunno y i can wake up so early ...den c mi mum nt at hm den quickly go on mi com lerhx...mi mum started workin frm 2dae onwards i guess...
den noone chat wif mi...hais...till she awake...den i sms wif her till she went online...
omg...i was so hpy...tt i wanna jump up n down lerhx...she really filled mi life wif colors...
lolx...hmmm...she said tt ...there's a chance...omg...hehx...i was so hpy...no matter hw slim the chance might b...i will wait 4 tt chance 2 come derhx...
omg...wakao...so many ppl angry wif mi sia...juz becuz i dun wan tell em hu i lik...bt den ...i dunno sia...if i tell too much ppl den v troublesome sia...
it's lik 12 smth den i go bath...can't bear 2 go offline...bt still have to...omg...den tt damn teng ...he online earlier den mi den instead slower den mi...siao derhx narhx....
den i can't take MRT cuz mi ez link no money lerhx so muz take bus cuz i have bus concession...den i go there n meet em ...den played initial d...wakao...damn hungry ...bt den muz bear wif it...till joseph cum...
den eat at mac...den joseph last again...wahahar...den we go play initial d again...
den after tt teng they all say wanna go west mall...den i dun wan go wif em cuz will play gooseberry...so i ask joseph come wif mi n dun b litebulb...so we went 2 jurong east library...
den after tt i go mac miself ...wahahars...left joseph himself...den i went 2 arcade...cuz i thought they nt inside...bt den they nt playin segarally...so i didn't saw em ...lolx...so they were oso inside narhx...den i go walk around miself...bt den nv c em wif amanda they all derhx...
den we go uncle tidbits...den bought menthos grapes...den i go separate ways wif teng they all ...den i saw amanda n shermine n joey n jolynn...omg...it's lik the few person i dun think i wanna face bahx...bt luckily...jolynn n joey block mi view frm amanda...lol...wanna sneak peek oso cannort...wahahars...
den i go find teng they all ...den found one guy call lay egg or smth lik tt de...he super hao lian...bt den at least is casual fren narhx...he told mi tt his fren beside him is clement,cally's younger bro...den i go play bball wif em ...lolx...
it was boring...bt den i oso hurt miself...omg...those ppl were rough...it's lik long time nv play wif adults lerhx...keep playin wif either yuan li or 4e4 gang...hu doesn't use much violent moves...bt those ppl wanna win den play cheat sia...bt den i tolerate abit narhx...if i play rough oso scared tt they have gang nearby sia...
den it's lik b4 i realise it...teng they all left lerhx...den i treat clement 2 drink...
den we play soccer a v v short while...den i sit down n have chats wif em ...den i go play bball ...one las match b4 i go hm...den it's lik i star player siia...so great...tt feeling...drivepast opponent...i finally noe y kelvin lik 2 drive n score liao lerhx...
always thought tt mi role is juz 2 dribble n pass ...didn't concentrate much on scoring...cuz i always play as guard derhx marhx...
den bt when mi team all de ppl dunno hw 2 score...den i muz score lerhx lorhx... tt feeling was great...teamates entrusting mi wif the ball den i juz drive ...if can't...i will do stop n go or spin move 2 confuse dem den drive again...
wakaka...so fun...being a forward...bt 2 bad...mi legs all these can't tahan...too much old injuries...
den clement's comment v exaggerating...he say i v fast...den v power...bt den i think tt compared 2 kelvin...i'm still a small piece of cheese cake...haix...
kelvin doesn't have 2 use any fakes 2 confuse his opponents...he juz use his speeding 2 gt pass opponent...whereas i have 2 use fakes 2 confuse opponent b4 driving past...bt den i made a crucial decision 2 miself...i muz train 2 b forward lerhx...cuz when ppl play 1 on 1 wif mi ...there's noone 2 pass 2 ...if i dun have 100% scoring strategy...i will b defeated...thus i muz learn scoring n put aside mi passing...so i can b as offensive as the others if i play 1 on 1 ...
after tt game,went 2 mac 2 eat dinner again...den saw alex...haha...wif bunch of his classmates...den i go hm...haix...realise she nv reply mi msg lerhx...shud b too bz bahx...wish she can reach hm faster...den go online n chat wif mi =(
it's really wierd without her around...sobx...
i love her ...n i'm willing 2 wait 4 her ...all the way ...
thus i will end mi post wif...simply...tt i wanna let her noe tt she light up mi life...
plying basketball on 9:40 PM
Friday, September 22, 2006
hehx...hpy n cheerful day ...
the day keep smiling at mi sia...omg...
i can't slp yesterday ...imagine wad she said 2 mi ...omg...i will spar wif ppl juz 2 hear tt frm her...
i felt tt i can have chance 2 b wif her...though dunno really can or nt...bt 2 mi ...we r as close as some couples lerhx...though nt super close narhx...
lol...
i woke up 5 45 den i wanna send her sms...bt dunno y mi hands can't move...too tired...i den i think 5 min later den send...den in the end lik 9 p clock den wake up...omg...teng nv call mi n i nv send her sms...omg...
den it's lik rush 2 skool den go recess...den check paper...disappointing..bt i was proud of joseph ...he's the highest of us the 4e4 akatsuki...omg...so gd...den i am the lowest...bt partially cuz i nv study larhx...sobx...
den went 2 art rm ...den do till v hungry ...dunno lik 2 plus den go eat...omg...teng hui they all guess hu i lik ...den they keep guessing cally,shermine kathlyn all tt...bt nv guess till her...
bt den omg...kelvin understand mi too much...damn him sia...he suddenly say her name out...omg...i dunno hw 2 react...was shocked narhx...haix...
den it's lik i deny larhx...bt den dunno thy lik think it's her...omg...
den it's lik went bck do art...den sms her...i really love her lorts...n i hate her stead...dunno hw 2 cherish her...=(
lol...
den i saw her n her fren comin up art box...den suddenly...ed they all go n shout larhx
when they left...den edmund go shout her name den say i lik her or smth lik tt...omg...hais...i wish sh'es nt angry wif mi ...
sobx...
den i go play initial d wif joseph...discovered alort of ways 2 increase mi speed...omg...so fun ...den eat lerhx den go hm...omg...she's online...bt i gt alort of ppl 2 entertain...when i finally finish...i quickly say hi 2 her n chat...
den she say she lik reading mi post...omg ...i was so hyper hpy...lolx...
n i quickly send her a msg when i start typin this post...n ...
omg...so excited...juz nw do smth den she suddenly online...
which is nw...thus i will continue mi post...wahahars...
it's juz actually a spoiler...2molo mi teng kel n joseph will b goin 2 jurong enter tainment...
den mi n joseph will collect tickets...hu wanna meet-n-greet session wif teng n kel muz pay mi n joseph 2 dollars...hehx...wahaha...they play initial d...attractive guys...
den wish kel n mi da sao can 4eva ...aloy n fon oso
wish i could b wif her...i will sure cherish her...n love her til 4eva...i swear i will 2 heaven n earth...i,gordan ,will cherish n b devoted 2 her...!!!
buaix reader...lolx..lolx...
plying basketball on 10:59 PM
Thursday, September 21, 2006
mentally brainwashed...
hehx...2dae gt one hr exam oni niahx...
den i go 4 counsiling...omg...so nice...den i go canteen eat lerhx...haix... yaxin wenxin n kathlyn shout at mi den qn mi bout amand's thing...i really dun wan 2 tok bout it lerhx...it's alrdy a past 2 mi ...
wad happened b4 is all past 2 mi nw...i lived 4 "her"...someone else...though i will try 2 cheer amanda up at her downturn of time...try 2 narhx...bt den if can will b gd...
den i rmb i go wif joseph 2 buy destiny gundam ...i find it nt worthwhile larhx....den i go jp wif joseph...he's cool 4 a beginner...bought s2000...bt think tt it's nt mi car...so i used bck spirit r...it's fast indeed...
lol...den i go bck art rm...den i hurt mi bck...omg...n mi shoulder...haix...den i go toilet tt time spotted amanda n shermine...i didn't look at em ...if i could...i will apologize...cuz i scared they think i act cool...bt juz tt i dun noe hw 2 face amanda real life...
haix...deni go jp wif joseph yet again...den after tt go hm...i tok 2 her n tell "her" mi feeling 4 "her"...
i really wish i could have a chance 2 take gd care of her...
i love her n will wait 4 her de...
i really wish kelvin n jolynn will b hpy 4eva...den amanda n the person she lik...
buaix...i'm brainwashed...sighed
plying basketball on 11:11 PM
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
i'm nt gonna die
sry 2 edit this post almostt completely...bt den i wanna walk down tt road of life ...till the ending point really come 2wards mi
haix...really wanna c kelvin n jolynn stead,amanda n her someone stead...wanna c the person hu is gonna take care of her ...n muz have mi last talk wif him ...
haix...den mi n kelvin lose to 2 bball perfect noobs...haix...courtesy 2 kelvin's injury...haix ... if he nt injured we sure can trash de...haix...can't even give mi last days some peace...
sobxsobx...wish tt there is someone hu will lend mi a shoulder 2 lie on ...i noe noone nice will offer de..
wanna c her hpy ... she's 1st perfect person i c in mi whole life...
go hm at nite kana lecture by sherlyn n amanda n jia hui ...lol...i finally rmb...i'm the brainest n most wicked among 4E4 akatsuki or wadeva lerhx...so i can't die ...
bt den i will turn over a new leaf...wun luff more den ten times each day bahx...except when playin basketball...haix...mi passion 4 the game is so great...as well as mi passionate 4 "her"
argh...juz when i thought amanda wasn't really lik ...bt juz sad n depressed...den smone came into mi mind...bt den i dun wanna mention it anymore...though she did appear bt nt much as b4 lerhx...5-10 times per day ???or a bit more oni bahx...
bt den it's decreasing lerhx...n i dun wan her 2 dun befren mi juz cuz of this cuz i juz wan her hpy ...n amanda too ...juz hpy...=)
jiahui too ...hpy=)
hwee hwee hpy =)
sherlyn hpy=)
n "her" hpy=)
den i will fulfill mi task lerhx....as a great fren n listener ....wakaka...sry den 2 those hu i spelled death...
bt i wun juz rest in peace...cuz i rmb i still gt smth 2 cling on2...bball ...her... amanda...n mi HONDA S2000...
buaix
plying basketball on 9:58 PM
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
feel lik dying...really feel lik dying...
yesterday ...b4 i sleep...haix...mi eyes still watery...i c the mirror...haix...hw gd it will b if mi eyes can turn into sharingan ...wanna b a real avenger...completely no feeling...haix...
den it's lik ...the 4th day dreaming...bt den ...haix...woke up n shed tears again...haix...gonna dehydrate soon...in the end...go skool...den so early...no ppl de...den i go sit wif the 4E1 students...den assembly lerhx...den go prelim lerhx...
2dae's paper... is the hardest paper i ever gotten...i completely luan luan do de...shudn't say is v difficult...bt is mi mind...y is she always on mi mind???haix...mi life really v miserable after friday...i really dunno wad 2 do ...
den i go eat at canteen...den eat wif jordan ...den joseph oso came...haix...den mitcheelll ask mi go up ...i noe sure i regarding the art thingy ...bt den i juz go up anyway...cuz i noe i wanna go up 2dae do mi prelim prep work de...
den it's lik ...b4 tt...aloy was tokin 2 mi ...den he suddenly ask her 2 come over...omg...y muz he call her of all ppl ???i really dun wanna c her face...i fear i will cry in front of her...i keep turning away...avoid her frm mi sight...haix...bt den i can escape once can't escape twice...haix...
went 2 art rm...2 c mitchell...juz when i thought i escaped ...the "twice" came...saw her bckview at the study corner...i walk past as fast as mi leg could bring mi ...i noe it had gone weak...wish 2 turn bck n c her again ...bt den i noe tt once i turn bck ...mi eyes will go watery again...i juz went off asap...
den it's lik do art the whole day ..do till mi eyes n neck n spine pain...hand oso ..knee oso ...omg...
den it's lik went 4 lunch ...at coffeeshop...we discuss on hw 2 improve our vocal...when someone walk past n drop a lollipop on the table...4 kelvin de...
den saw her again...can't belive mi luck...haix...den when she walk bck 2 skool...i watch her walk bck...mi heart sank 2 the bottom of the dead sea...haix...
den we go bck art box den suddenly...i saw her opposite...callin 4 kelvin...haix... c her again...den later even worse,,,they come 2 art box...i dun even dare 2 face outside...den it pains mi more when annabelle they all keep sayin amanda sia amanda sia...haix...
isit humilation or wad???haix...y muz the whole world turn it's bck 2 mi ???haix... saw em yet again...thought is other ppl lai de...haix...den heard her voice...haix...
i really v v sad...i really feel lik jumpin down de building nw...den hope ppl will burn mi paper money ...hell notes 4 mi when i go away...
bt den i juz tell her tt i goin 2 migrate 2 other countries...cuz i wonder hw will she feel if i break tt stupid idea 2 her...i noe it's stupid idea...bt den i can't help it ...v miserable...i really feel lik dying...
wish mi remaining days will b hpy...wan her hpy this few days...when i'm gone...it's blessing...i can sty by her side 4eva n watch her slp...lik mr hollow man...so cool...
i really love her alort...mi time is running up...wish there's a chance...bt there aren't any...haix...
bb...dear readers...burn mi hell notes if u care...wakaka =(
haix...wish i can b lik sai ...a feelingless person hu oni live 2 spy ... haix...
den i can die fast fast ...
wakakaka....
!!!!
2molo de art prelim support mi horx.....!!!! dun support i hit ur butt ....!!!!wakaka
...diaox ...
kkies...gtg lerhx...2molo wanna chiong lerhx...
b kind healthy good n smart...wakakaka
4e4 akatsuki rox ...brainest strategist...
this will b the most stupid gang i ever had ...
bt den oso the best in bball de ...wahahaha...muz survive 2 c em stead...wahaha
...
lolx...i go n tell u all nxt time ... their lao po ... haha...
buaix.... i siao lerhx...haix...
buaix buai x buaix ,,,!!!@@@ =(
plying basketball on 9:49 PM
Monday, September 18, 2006
haix...i really dunno wad's goin on in mi ...bt alort of loving pairs together...
haix...
mi twin n mi wei lai da sao is so loving ...i swear i wun make em break if it's one of em nearly car crash,i wun let the ohter shield...i will shield...i will risk mi life 2 c em 2gether...cuz i really wan him hpy...i can't bring miself 2 hate 4e4 ...maybe cuz of our deep frenship...bt den emdund...actually i dun lik him oni...the rest is ok de...
den it's lik ...after skool...went 2 joseph hse play gundam battle assault 3...cool n fun...sword strike launcher strike...ya juz rox...
den it's lik ...haix...went 2 eat lunch wif joseph ...den went 2 c gundam model...super enthu in gundam suddenly...omg...haix...den i go bck skool...den jiahui say wad dun nid mi come bck...siao de...den i go canteen sit v long narhx...den pei siang they all jeer mi suddnely...i clench mi fist lerhx...bt den didn't narhx...gt fontain n aloy around...
den it's lik ...i go bck wif em ...came 2 noe fontaine n alo stead...omg...their distance so far...omg...
den tt cally ...xiang wai wai...i dun lik lerhx!!!
den it's lik ...went eating wif aloy...den chat bout amanda...den it's lik both of us also regret hw we mistrust her ...both have the same thinkin...if we were 2 b able 2 patch...we sure cherish n treasure her de...=(
bt den it's' over ...too bad...i really wish 4 a second chance...bt den i noe there wun b ...bt den frm this morning...till nw...i keep sayin haix 2 evryone in msg n 2 joseph in real life...i feel tt it's still her ...omg...haix...i dun wish 2 think bout it ...bt den i can't c her foto derhx sia...den i c her real person 2dae even worse...when aloy was tokin 2 her in the canteen...
i dunno narhx...den it's lik ...chat wif her...break lerhx...it really was sad ...nearly cried...bt den sherlyn made mi cheer up...den abit lik affection...or shud say gratitude 2 her larhx...
den it's lik i think she lik someone...i wish her really all the best...as long as she hpy ...i will hpy too...if she sad i will sad wif her...even as a fren ...sty by her side 4eva...
den teng hui tell mi tt he wan mi join bck akatsuki's 4e4 gang...
den it's lik ...i dunno narhx...nt i dunwan chng...i oso wan 2 ...bt den mi sis n mi mum r gossipers...i interact wif girls even more den some of the ex i have norhx...
haix...i really gt 2 restrain mislf...hu dun wan fren ???i of cuz wanna fren em...especially kelvin...mi twin ...the one hu can have eye communnication wif mi n do alort of things wif mi ...teng hui ...hw bout him???copy alot of skills frm him...bball...initial d ...alort...edmund...i listen 2 his counsils b4...nt him i oso wun have a great memory wif pooh...bt tt one i really feel too rushing lerhx...seriously...nv stead i feel btr...i still haven establish tt relationship wif her yet...
haix...
tt's all 4 2dae...wish 4 her chance...bt no miracle lik tt will happen de narhx...bt den ...i wish she hpy can lerhx...mi top priority...haix...wo liu xia po sui de yan lei
bb...
plying basketball on 10:06 PM
Sunday, September 17, 2006
CLOUD's battle...
in the morning...woke up...felt so funny ...told a few person bout mi inner conflicts lerhx...n they gave mi the same ans ....
den i go call joseph...wahaha...we spent hrs thinkin of hw 2 spend our day...
den in the end meet up...both brought snacks along...wahaha...den we go take 174 go JP
den it's lik reach there den eat LJS...saw a gay...omg...can't belive it...he's lik the face nt bad derx...bt den his actions...omg...
wakao...den we go up den we go buy card...den he thought of buying a MAZDA RX-7 SPIRIT R TYPE A again...n named it ROXAS...he's quite strong 4 a beginner...
den it's lik mi turn...den last min bought a ER34 NISSAN SKYLINE 25GT TURBO..den named it cloud...since he named it under square enix de character...i oso lorx..cloud is mi favourite character...
den it's lik ...omg...he quite pro 4 a beginner...wahaha...won 2 ppl 2dae...n lost 2 one...wahaha...
bt this car ...is still nt gd ...can't satisfy mi skill...i nid mazda...bt den i've reached mi limits lerhx...haix...
den it's lik ...tt pro is cuz he use ae86...so i dun feel i lose...plus mi car nt fully modified...i can't give up...lolx...
den eat KFC den went hm...shud say no flashbcks lerhx...worse...nt flashbcks...bt i can picture her in mi mind...the same as tt time hw i could picture pooh in mi brain...omg...wad the hell happened???
rain so cold sia...mi heart oso v cold...froozen 2 death lerhx narhx...
she flooded mi brain...i told ppl...they tell mi i lik her...bt den it was used 2 kelvin tellin mi ...cuz he understand mi most...
bt den ...haix...den eugeniia oso tell mi is i lik her...so i had 2 accept tt fact...i lik her...n it's nt a bit bt v much...bt den she seemed 2 ignore mi ...haix...
den keep chatting wif eugeniia...v hpy ...den pooh tell mi nw she gt 5 choice...means she can choose frm 5 ppl 2 lik... omg...didn't expect she use this kind of method ...lik havin a competition 2 c hu goes in finals...haix...
i think i love her ...i wish her 2 hear...she's v sad bt dunno hw 2 cheer her up...she seemed 2 ignore mi ...haix...
plying basketball on 10:33 PM
haix...wad was mi mind thinking...
i rmbed rushing 2 yuan li hse there de bball court...den played bball wif yuan li...omg...mi 3 pointer gt improvement lerhx...juz when i was gonna shoot mi 5th consecutive three pointer...tt moment...the flashbck came again...wad was tt???
haix...
den it's lik ... tt flashbck alrdy occur more den once evry few minutes...wad's tt??haix...muz b mi wild imagination...bt den even in mi dream ...omg...
i shudn't have did tt last nite...tt close death let mi had these flashbcks...
i went 2 eat wif yuan li...den go gombak there play bball...den it's lik ... saw leslie they all den play bball together...they were cocky...bt they can't compare 2 us larhx.. both match oso considered we win...cocky guys...watch out larhx ...
den i go hm...so sian derhx...den chat wif both jasmine...hopin "she" is well...didn't c her online many days lerhx... dunno y "she" appeared in mi flashbcks...omg...didn't seemed tt cally or amanda gt involved...unexpectedly...tt flashbck had "her"...omg...wad was i thinkin...it's juz imaginations... purely
imaginations ...omg...haix...i juz broken up wif amanda...couldn't have lost mi feelings 4 her...bt wad was tt???
heaven was giving mi a second life...bt den a troublesome one isn't it???haix...
haix...it did occur abit lesser larhx...wish it would go away slowly...bt den wad was happening...
den it's lik ...went hm den go bck west mall den eat lorx...den go hm again...haix..."she" still send flashbck's onto mi mind...haix...mi eye lid keep twitching...wad went wrong???haix
finally tok 2 amanda lerhx...she was well...omg...kelvin n jolynn...congrats larhx...i dunno y i so hpy 4 em larhx...bt den mi n 4e4 gang nw is dunno larhx...v troublesome network...bt den i really feel hpy 4 him sia...wish ed n teng hui will gt theirs sooner or later too...
haix...bout tt girl...i really dunno wad 2 say...y "she" appear as mi last flashbck b4 i return 2 mi sense???y "she" keep appearing in mi mind...haix...dear readers...help mi!!!
plying basketball on 12:58 AM
Saturday, September 16, 2006
haix...ended mi stry ...wanna end mi life bt can't...
haix...yesterday...haix...
i went bck 2 skool...den noe there's no art breifing...bt gt remedial...bt i dun wanna go cuz i dun wanna c em ...
den it's lik i go find cally they all ... den sit there n trace the jiahui's hmwk or smth lik tt...den put shadow 4 it...
den i draw on yaxin's book...
den it's lik finally can go west mall lerhx...den go wif fon n cally...den came 2 noe cally is called jia li in chinese...omg...y muz her name b so same wif "kelly"
hais...den i go 2 bus stop tt time...den amanda ask jolynn sms mi...n i noe mi mood wun go up anymore 4 the day...
haix...i alrdy tried 2 pull a smile...bt den cally n fon say mi eyes looked scary...
omg...haix...if tacy noe bout this she sure scold mi or wad de...
bt blame it on miself...dun even noe wad 2 do de...den i go sit down at west mall wif fon n cally till aloy come down...wahaha...keep teasing fon...wakaka...den i go walk wif cally they all den bluff them say i goin tacy's hse...bt i took 2 second storey den take the lift down again n c cally walk hm safely den go buy KFC n chip aloy den go hm
den i go hm den on the computer den chat wif evryone till at nite...bt oso gt watch naruto 200 cuz i saw the other day de no english subtitle...
haix...felt so depressed whole day ...den gt 2 new gd frenx...eugeniia(claudius de stead) n sherlyn...
n i explain y i out of 4e4 gang 2 many ppl ...
bt den none really seemed 2 understand tt welll...except a few larhx...
really muz thx some listening ears...
den gt ppl prank call mi den i immediately can tell it's a prannk n nt real de bt i still play wif em larhx...n i noe is teng hui's fren immediately...sry guys...i dun have the brawl bt i gt mi brains...
bt den in the mid nite...really still wanna commit suicide...bt den didn't kill miself...omg...i didn't even made any mistake...wanna die oso cannot...haix...
mi life was miserable...
wish later can play bball den get in a better mood...
plying basketball on 10:37 AM
Friday, September 15, 2006
omg...geography test...
came bck frm skool...omg...this morning was miserable...
it's lik v lonely larhx...den fon come ask mi 2 go find cally...bt den i can't break tt promise...if nt will protray bad impression on cally's mind...
omg...wad shud i do ???
den it's lik geog exam ...2 mi evry exam oso difficult...as long as there r qns on it...
den i finish lerhx den go walk around wif joseph till recess den go eat...
den ask joseph join em he dun wan ...den after the recess we go find jasmine...ask bck 4 mi yrbk...bt den she say cannot give den i go hm lerhx...
omg...ohya...1st time hear heather's voice...thought she is a english person...so she oso speak chinese de...den tt aloy bully mi!!! argh...haix...
wish i can b frenz bck wif her...really missed quarreling wif her...it was really damn fun 2 mi...argh...gt 2 rush bck 2 the art briefing...wish it wun b long...
b4 i leave...i muz tell her after skool...i wanna shake hand peace out...dun wan lose a fren lik her n sry...
haix...wish she accept mi explanation...argh...
wish i can go gym...really wanna do heavy trainings too...den can gt six pack lik those detestable freaks...bt den ...if lik tt den will copy em...muz gt on wif mi stupid training ...sian...heavy training would b tiring n fun bahx...
haix...
wish she can forgive mi...buaix...
plying basketball on 11:38 AM
Thursday, September 14, 2006
unsure...
2dae...actually woke up at the usual time...bt after bathing...i juz lik...took mi time doin evrything...cuz dun nid go till amanda hse 4 2dae...
den it's lik ...go bus interchng study math...lolx...
den saw claudius n chat wif him...he slowly became a gd fren of mine...
den it's lik...go skool...den go 2 find cally n fontaine...den bell ring den go line up lerhx...den math prelim...was quite difficult 2 mi actually...
den it's lik ... after tt ...went 2 eat at canteen...opps...cally again...teased her smwad...
she lik avoiding mi v much 2dae ...dunno wad happened...bt i noe smth was wrong...i juz dun lik it n went 2 eat miself...
after tt...went 2 take report bk wif joseph...den go bck,adam ask us 2 cut our hair...den i go 2 chat wif claudius again...n at there...start mi 1st sms wif amanda 4 the day...
den it's lik ...v mushy...bt den claudius say tt man muz b more daring de narhx..
den i go 2 cc de mac there eat wif joseph...den after tt we go 2 kel hse there de carpark there train...i did alot of training..joseph did light ones...bt den mayb becuz he can't take heavy training...lolx...
bt den ...haix...
it's lik i go bck skool ...den saw shermine...c her lyin on the table...moodless bahx...
bt in the end...it's nt juz moodless...she was cryin...den as jiu jiu of cuz muz do smth norhx...den bought her tissue(so expensive!!!)n drink...
den go caltex 2 eat den come bck again...den go find jasmine...ohya...1st day tokin 2 her...thought she is v english type of ppl...in the end all she speaks is chinese...omg...
den it's lik ...went 2 west mall den saw 4E4 gang...they diao mi,i diao em lik tt...
den it's lik ...went hm after mi dinner...
finally noe y amanda lik v reluctant lerhx...she nid freedom...so i will leave her alone... haix ...bt another one,more serious bahx
haix...tonguees wags fast...made mi can't dun make mi make this decision...2 leave cally alone forever...i hate this decision bt i can't help it...
it's lik ...i dun wan 2 disgrace her by havin a toad lusting at her...n i think she's better off nt noeing mi...
bt den ...mi oso feelin v down...can't deny she's somewad important 2 mi ...
haix...
things juz made mi heart sheds blood evryday...
wonder hw long will it shed b4 it reach it's limit n really breeak n end mi life..
haix...
buaixx...
plying basketball on 7:55 PM
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
hais...dun even noe wad i doin
2dae morning...practical exam ...heex...
i juz find tt ...i'm completely invisible was bad...haix...
2dae morning...as usual...went 2 her hse dwnstairs wait...
den walk 2 skool...was extremely quiet 2dae...den i proved mi observation correct...if i dun ask her anything...den there is no conversation at all...n even when i ask ...the ans she give is oni one word...
haix....
i wish i could chat wif her...at least ...juz lik hw she chat wif teng hui they all...haix...y muz she treat mi lik hollow man???haix...
i juz wish tt she can tok 2 mi n all tt...dun ignore mi ...i dun mind goin out wif alort of girls...dun mind waiting 20 min evry morning...bt i dun wish her 2 ignore mi...haix...
den the pratical ...was difficult...omg...shud say all exams r difficult 2 mi ...haix...
haix...i wanna cry sia...when at the music rm...wanna hide one corner n cry...bt den the 4e4 gang sit beside mi...all of em ...n anyway...juz one note...i'm nt in 4E4 gang anymore...
i nt as handsome,smart,cool,cute n clever as all of em ... evryone of em is so attractive ...nt fit 2 b in it...
den it's lik...after skool...go retrieve mi fone frm cally...in the meanwhile aiting...taught joseph some tips on defending n striking...
den it's lik...haix...go eat wif joseph...den go walk wif him n all tt...noticed y so many pl say he nerd...this is the last i can do 4 the 4E4 gang...help it's member 2 b better ...
omg...teach him hw 2 walk stand n smile...basic postures la...bt which is wad he was lacking of...
den i dunno ...bt den cally say they all waiting 4 mi at canteen...den i rush bck lerhx...haix...when i run...felt lik cryin...wasn't really hpy whole day ...bt when i face joseph cally n fontaine...i had 2 force a smile...n oso jk wif em n quarrel wif em 2 distract mi sadness...haix...
wish i can juz lik wad gui ji say...daydream,smile n close mi eyes...den can 4gt her lerhx...haix...the feeling is there...bt den i feel sad thinkin bout her...haix...y muz she treat mi lik i am invisible???
haix...
den i was chatting wif jiahui while fontaine n cally go 4 art club cca briefing...
haix...den after tt...when they come bck...den wanna go hm...bt den saw yuan li...den went wif him 2 play bball....
omg...den on the bus...gt one uncle v rude...den he bang yuan li ...den i v furious la..bt i fake a smile...bt mi eyes diao him lerhx...den i scold vulgar loudly...
i wanna hit tt uncle sia...super guai lan...bt c cally around...den dun wan spoil mi image oso...didn't notice it...i stop mi vulgarity habit a bit lerhx...i mean cut down alot lerhx....
den go play bball...train mi three pointer shot....den play 2 on 2 team wif yuan li...was the playmaker...bt made sm shots...lolx... v nice lorx...one is hook lay up...den the other is three pointer...den the last ball oso scored by mi...it was spectacular...yuan li run pass mi ...den lik screening 4 mi...den i do 5 spin move...even i oso confused miself...den i go n quickly reverse lay up...
omg...den end it...so spectacular larhx...5 spin move den reverse lay...omg...
haix...
den i go eat KFC yet again...den go hm lerhx...
den online...den cally n jia hui ask mi 2 ask amanda if she still love mi...
i really dun dare 2 ask narhx...cuz ...i scared i will b disappointed wif her ans again...haix...mi heart sheds blood...even more den mi limbs...though they gt injured evry day too...
haix...
wish all these will end soon....
wanna train three pointer lerhx...it's wad made mi come all the way here...i rmb tt time play outside team den i was the secondary playmaker n oo the shooter...mi passing n mi shooting made mi came here...cuz of mi fear no one attitude n mi ability 2 distract mi opponent wif mi words...haha....
bt den i will try...2 go bck where i was...bt adding a few lay ups would b fine...of cuz muz b a modified improved version...bt den i oso muz train mi three pointer bahx...mi passing is fine 2 mi anyway...
haix..wish it's all juz a dream ...wake up frm it...sounds ironic rite???if u c one of the previous post,i mention i dun wan wake up frm mi dream...bt nw ...i dread 2 ...haix...i suffering in 18 storey of hell nw...!!!
late lerhx...gotta go...catch ya soon...haha...haix...mi smiles nw r all so fake...can't let others c thru mi...bt fontaine did...
plying basketball on 10:34 PM
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
give it up...hais...shud i ???
yesterday...things were quite smooth...in the morning...was really v hpy 2 c her... walk 2 skool halfway den saw kelvin...den had the chinese prelim...hw shud i say it...bt den i have no confidence of doin the prelim well...haix...
den it's lik after skool...went 2 west mall den wif samuel,toured around n chi chat...it was really nice...waste mi time away...
den at nite...chat on fone wif her 4 a couple of hrs...it was really gd...at least it's better den chatting wif some ppl bahx...bt den ...i think she's probably bored of it all ...haix...msn gt faults...evryone can't online...
this morning...was late...bt lucky wasn't late 4 skool...ss...
it was difficult 4 mi ...den it's lik went hm..pack miself up n went bck again...
den after doin mi art...went 2 canteen 2 chat wif cheng en ,aloy,fontaine n cally...
lolx...real life can't tok 2 her de...she really v wanna find smth 2 quarrel bout...later ppl think v compatible den die...(no wonder tacy say tt...)
omg...
bt den ...anyway...noone cares...it doesn't really mean anything...anyone can b compatible as long as their character when mix 2gether can cuz spark...which the character can chng de...doesn't sty wif anyone 4eva...
den she n jiahui n fontaine lik urging mi 2 sty n wait 4 amanda...i admit i was wanting 2 ...bt den after some great thoughts...i dun think it will make a difference...she will b pressing her fone...
bt in the end they all leaving den the time was juz rite...amanda came bck wif her group of frenx...
den was forced 2 sit at the round table wif em ...haix...wad upsets mi is tt she keep lookin at her fone n sms...n if i nt wrong...it's no doubt...kel bahx...haix...
hate it...2 sit down there n do nth...was still sad cuz she can't go c monkey wif mi ...bt den try 2 pull a smile...
didn't wan ppl 2 noe mi inner side...juz lik SAI...haix
bt deep inside mi...mi heart alrdy started 2 shed ...i dunno y she treat it as i wasn't there at all...den wad was stead all about???
or shud i say...wad did she define stead as???treating the person as an invisible person n oni treat him as alive when he's online???
haix...flashbcks came bckk.... it all oni happened 2 mi...aloy,teng hui
,kel,kife,anton,evryone else...she treat em all equally...chatting wif em wif joyous mood...bt y when she face mi...she juz didn't say anything n walk away lik i was invisible???
it's lik we r worse den even hw she treat her classmate...really felt miserable bout it...
haix...am i even worse den a dog???
haix...wanna get her out of mi head ...y muz she treat mi lik an invisible cloak???
it's nt in a harry potter world...hais...
went bck hm...den online...haix...had quarrel wif her...it's all mi fault...y muz i bring it out...haix...bt den really v ...haix...if strangers c...hu would have thought we r stead...???
haix...i really dun lik this...bt in the end...cally told mi smth which knock mi sense bck...
den i apologize 2 her wif sincerity...in the end...disappointed wif her reply...haix....
wish 2 ask her when will she treat mi really lik a stead????
haix...
ying wei wo fei chang zai hu,suo yi cai hai pa shi qu ...
really wish she uds hw i feel bout her...it's really the 1st time i feel i love smone tt much bahx...haix...
really wish 2 drip mi blood n rite her a letter of blood...bt 4 her case...mayb she will feel disgusting instead....
wish i can hug her n cry instantly...haix...really wish she can treat mi lik a stead...
gtg lerhx...sry reader 4 late posting...buaixxx...gd luck 2 ya....
plying basketball on 10:25 PM
Sunday, September 10, 2006
wad can i do 2 make u trust miiie!!!!!
haix...the whole day ...frm yesterday...haix...it was so bad...becuz of a few words i said...she gt v freak out...haix...den nw...she wanna disown tenghui...i can't allow history 2 repeat...i dun wan 2 b the second aloy or even worse den wad aloy did...haix...
this morning...the same issue is raised...haix...den aloy helped her 2 lecture mi... 2 b lecture by a sec 1 ...sounds disgraceful...bt mi brain is even worse den a sec 1 ...haix...
i really dunno wad i shud do ...aloy ask mi 2 call her when she offline...bt i juz dun have the guts 2...haix...y ?...can't belive it...i dare 2 do all sorts of stupid things others can't...bt den when it come 2 things which i MUST do ...the gut in mi juz vanish...haix...
i wish i could b tt angel beside u ...bt i can't...
i really wish i could wake up 2 c ur morning msg...wish i can c it again when i'm in the middle of mi lunch or when i'm exhausted halfway in a lesson in skool...one when i'm gonna pull up mi blanket n slp...
maybe it's too much 2 u bahx...haix...i'm askin 2 much ...did i ???
haix...
i wish i could b wif u all day...look at ur face...ur expression evrything...
n when i thought it's all over...new conflicts starts...i dunno wad's it gonna do wif mi...haix...
so dear readers...sry 4 it all ...bt den 2 avoid such conflicts...those i love i rank em in order this time frm most important...haix...
n i oso put a social circle thingy on mi others section...
wish ya would view it when ya free...though it's a bit lame oh how...
haix...
in the nite...the most joyous things were 2 eat pizza as dinner...n chatting wif yaxin,omi biao yi,cally jolynn n joey...haix...dunno hw 2 repay em ...bt den i really wish i can b of help 2 em in the future...
i really dunno y u dun trust mi...since we r together...trust muz b build...if there's no trust...this relationship is nt strong...it will trumple anytime...
haix...i tried 2 b hpy bt i can't...all mi haha n all tt...they r juz the opposite of wad mi minds r really thinkin ...i really wish these days were juz test 4 mi n will b over soon...i muz try 2 give in 2 her...n break thru tt obstacle between us...
thus dear readers...plz give in more 2 ur other half...haix...dun b a useless bug lik mi ...can't even provide her wif hpyness...felt lik dying outside...drowning in the dead sea...haix...
plying basketball on 8:38 PM
Saturday, September 09, 2006
i love u ...feel so sry...i really misunderstand u lotx...
omg...another time a lot of days nv blog lerhx...haix...
quick summaries 4 the few days...monday...gt remedial in the morning...didn't felt i learnt anything at all...
den i went 2 cuzway wif amanda shermine joey jolynn n ...4gt the name lerhx...den eat there n such...lolx...den it's lik at nite go c kathlyn's profile...yucks...omg...didn't belive she wrote tt...den still gt one girl call wad jomin de ...argh...
den tuesday...art camp...omg...there's loadxx of things 4 mi 2 hpy n sad bout...den it's lik ...omg...i finish mi bckground slightly off target...den it's lik go lunch den strt 3rd layer lerhx...
at nite didn't slp...lolx...bt den wasn't really doin cuzwork...
at 12 10,went 2 rooftop...den ...edmund they all dunno do wad...omg...
haix...
den it's lik was amazed at the sppeed of mi climbing up the roof top ...
den it's lik ...den we went bck...den tok 2 amanda in conference on the fone wif alot of her frenz...
den it's lik ...at 1:11 am of sept 6...she finally become mi the other half...
den it's lik ...i felt hpy of cuz...bt den i was insecure...dear readers...plz dun tell amanda bout this...bt den ...i really feel insecure bout it...amanda accept...it was out of mi imagination prediction n all the tions...really was shockin n unbelievable...i really wish it wasn't juz a dream...bt 2 mi...tt moment was lik a dream 2 mi ...n if it's juz a dream...i rather nt wake up frm tt dream ...
i really couldn't belive it...den i whole nite dunno wad 2 do ...gt around the skool...den slp 4 an hr n wake up...omg...actually i was headache all over lerhx...
den i noe mi coursework die lerhx...
i keep rushing mi coursework...den went 4 lunch wif yaxin ,mi nuer...den i go bck n rush on mi coursework...till 3 15 den i finish...den i bath n all tt...den it's lik wait 4 kel 2 finish his coursework...till 6 i can't wait anymore den go hm lerhx...
den thursday...went 4 math...late...den went 2 eat wif yaxin joseph n kelvin ...den i go hm...den online i think ...thru out the day...aloy lik v wierd...his manner 2 mi is nt tt frendly anymore...haix
den friday ...com plug confiscated...haix...den it's lik ...went 2 play bball wif yuan li they all...den mi pooh...her line activated...omg...well ...tt's gd...
den after tt ...i go n fetch huihui frm her cdac(i call her tt cuz hui is 3 letter den hwee is 4 letter...)
den it's llik go hm den saturday.....!!!!argh...2 more days 2 skool...prelim...
den went 2 play bball again...den nth much happen till teng hui broke the plastic container of the cookie...he offered 2 buy a new one...den i alrdy felt hopeless...
it's cuz it's accidentally den i felt scared de...i really v scared...yaxin tell mi tt amanda lik v close wif teng hui oso ...omg...he's mi fren...quite ok de fren...at least 4 10 yrs le...
haix...bt den ...he's more superior den mi in all aspect...if he wan...one shock 2 the eyes n he can gt the girl he wan...haix...i really dun wan tt 2 happen ...really dun wish 2 ...wad shud i do /
???
is this all jhuz a dream ???can anyone tell mi ???if being wif her is oni a dream ...i dun wan 2 wake up....!!!i wanna b wif her all mi life...i miss her smile...miss her ...the way she hold her fone...the way she walk evry morning...i really wish 2 c tt...i really miss her ... n i muz try 2 trust her ...lik wad yuan li say ...bt den ...i really have no confidence...nt in her...bt miself...if i were on the top of the hill...i wun b here sighing...bt i'm at the bottom...the cliff...the cave...the villages way down ... the dead end...
i'm really scared i will lose u ...plz dun leave mi...i really dun wish 2 wake up frm this dream ...
sobx...
plying basketball on 9:41 PM
Sunday, September 03, 2006
long time no post...argh...i hate tt bitch...
sry 4 nt posting in tt few weeks...evry day seemed restless 2 post...dunno y ...tt kind of wanna blog de mindset chng ...
so let's summarise wad happened...kel was bck ...lolx...den mi ca2 de result sux...dunno wad 2 do wif it...lol....den we r organizing an art camp...den i lik keep pressin her 4 ans...haix...n she keep sayin dunno...lol...den it's lik...ok...nw 2 the most recent part lerhx...
it juz happen on thursday...we had the look cool day n all tt...den it's lik ... we went 2 jurong entertaainment...she still doesn't give mi an ans...haix..it's nt i press 4 ans ...it's the ppl outside pressing mi 4 ans(those ppl c le dun bash mi la)
lolx...den it's lik ...haix...
den we went 2 west mall...den saw kathlyn ...den she ask mi b her ah gong...den i say ok lorx...den 4e4 gang except edmund go arcade...den it's lik mi n kelvin go 2 comic connection den teng suddenly call kelvin 2 go up...den kel thought teng dio dai ji den tell mi go up...den i run up the escalator den fell...mi leg collapse on the sharp point of the steps of the escalator...
argh...so pain...den it's lik i went up 2 find out tt teng wanna kel c smone play segarally till v exagerating...argh!!!
den it's lik ...in the nite den tt kathlyn keep tokin on fone wif mi ...den she lik tell mi 2 play prank wif yaxin n all tt den suddenly...she ask mi 4...siao de la...
den it's lik ... nxt day...went 2 play bball wif kelvin...den kathlyn lik keep callin mi lerhx...haix...den it'lik kel has 2 help mi ...den we played bball...argh...didn't noe mi 2 leg oso injured...
den it's lik i play bball...of all de 2 on 2 de,mi teaming up wif yuan li n kelvin , nv lost once...lol...
den it's lik i won de guy hu i lose 2 in goodview...lolx...plus it's trashing...
den it's lik went 2 west mall...find cheng rui they all den go 2 play bball again...den we play 3 on 3,lose v badly cuz...kel yuan li n marcus vs mi cheng rui n wei cai...isn't the winner obvious???actually nt...we have our good points too...
den it's lik gt one guy challenge mi 1 on 1...den i was havin bckbone injury...dunno is sprain or wad...den i played wif himm...leading him 5-0,7-2 den suddenly he draw wif mi...8-8
den i lik force miself further(alrdy forcing miself 2 jump in the 1st place)den i push mi knees n ankle 2 their most outstanding injured limit,mi spine oso...den win la...11-8
bt den the lay up when i scored 9 points n mi last lay up which scored the win super painful cuz i can't land properly den fall down n roll on the floor...
den kel n cheng rui play...they played much better...haix...den it's lik went hm...kel 4the 1st time accompany mi take bus frm inter...lolx..was hpy bt den remorse...dunno 4 wad reason
den kathlyn still keep bugging mi la...
den nxt day ... the sentosa day...kathlyn wake mi up n tell mi tt her mum ask her go early...n so she will reach one hr earlier...den say noone accompany her...
haix...
lolx...den walk wif her 2 the carpark n cut mi finger nails...dislik it...keep getting pinches n knockes frm her...
den went 2 buy tidbits ...den go 2 the control station lerhx...den saw yaxin lik sad sad de...den kathlyn wanna ask mi disown yaxin on the spot...i dun wan la...den it's lik she quite angry wif tt...den keep slappin mi alot of times...tight slaps...1st time in mi life...den it's lik she still bite mi hand...
den...haix...den went 2 sentosa...lolx..den went there den go tanjong beach den play freesbie...
den go wif yaxin n her mentor 2 palawan de 7 eleven...walk a long way there...den treat her drink slurpee n lollipop...lolx...den took beach train bck...den go rent bike...kathlyn wasn't hpy cuz i was quite close wif yaxin bt it's she keep go playin wif water which i hate most lorx...
den we all waiting 4 kathlyn they all 2 come bck den go hm lerhx...den they so late...
haix...den can't meet wif amanda they all lerhx...damn it...den it's lik go 2 buy shoe wif kathlyn n stuffs...den go take mrt bck...den kathlyn angry again...den it's lik ...
go n eat wif kelvin n yaxin...den they wait 4 mi bus...thx ya...lolx...
nw i finally noe hu r gd 2 mi ...lolx...mi nu er,twin,mei,niece n mi pooh...lolx...wee...
blur pooh...lolx...
den it's lik go hm den pooh tell mi dunno...it's nt really a B anymore isn't it???lolx...i;m inch close 2 getting an ans...lol.x..
so long lerhx...gtg lerhx...bb
plying basketball on 10:44 AM
