Saturday, January 31, 2009
Disappointment , jux cnt rise up on my knees
^Air Jordan not perfect afterall ..
these few days keep reading the Jordan Rules , which is a biography on Michael Jordan's first championship in 1990-1991 , n it writes alot about the player's life , characters and all tt , according to third person's view , rly v nice ..
hmm , today morning , the bad scenario came , I failed my evaluation by a small margin , n is rly sad and disappointed over it , haix ... den was laughing stock by Yuan Li they all for awhile , well , I got nth to say la , is my fault .. bt i will retake the evaluation on Monday ..
dn go Yuan Li's house bai nian , dn watch them gamble , dn go to find Pearlyn at Goodview court , den i ply awhile ... den go home alrdy , ohya , i knw y pearlyn photogenic alrdy cux she smile more when taking fotos ..
mayb i shud nt have known u
to knw u more , i fall for u more
and knw i have no chance at all
cant kick u out of my brain
bt evrything between us is impossible
whad shud i b doing ??
plying basketball on 10:54 PM
High Arch
Today
went to eat wif Whye Kit , Damien , Melvin , Jonathan , another Melvin , Leon , Sarah and others at West Mall Sakae Sushi , eat the sushi buffet , till we r full , though i wasn't rly filled up yet ...
dn i go home , ride bike to shelter court to find Damien n Whye Kit they all , was raining , so sway lor , haha , bt gt stop awhile , den i go there , today was abit lik average , nt so off form alrdy , n saw two national team players , rly v v gd , den i also getting bck my high arching shot alrdy , miss it v much ...
dn cycle home tt time , wondering if i shud expose my blog to more ppl , n also thinking of hw much i've deteoriate since the injuries last yr , more than I can imagine man .. haix , burden nw .. tmr gt basic theory evaluation in the morning , gambatei ...
aww , life is rly lik ...dunno whad
no gf
no money
no car
no v gd bball skills
no interesting happenings
awwww ... sucky life , especially after secondary school life
if u cn always b wif me , will my days b sunshine forever ?
plying basketball on 12:01 AM
Thursday, January 29, 2009
CNY 09
^me wif my zilian youngest sister
~Monday
wake up , chat wif Chin Ming , went to my father's big brother's house to bai nian , den was lik didn't gt alot of red packets , den go home , den go eat wif teng hui at alif i think , den go home , chat wif Sarah n Terecia , den slp liao
~Tuesday
go grandma house den go to greatgrandpa's son house , receive more hong bao this time round , den i go to sing karaoke wif Teng n chin shen at Home TeamNS , den we go eat alif den go my house slack till morning , den slp
~Wed
wake up , do my home workout , dn go yuhua cc to train wif yusong b4 going he's house bai nian , den it was lik cux of the puush ups n all tt , my whole hand very nua
den i go to find chin shen n teng hui den we go slack n they acc me to eat at char grill at block 347 , quite nice , first time eat there
dn it was lik discover tt mouse nowadays rly v daring , last tym wan c cnt c , nw dun wan c oso cn c , i lik scared of them more than cats n dogs alrdy ...
~Thurs
wake up , den go to ply bball wif Chin Shen n Teng , den no ppl ply one , so we do some shoot ard , den Guang Hao oso there , den gt some quite strong ppl come n ply wif us , bt bcux we dun have the adrenaline rush , evry shot jux did not fall in , especially mine , haix
bt i still made alot of nice drives n kicks , lol
dn last ball i made a circus shot where the person hit my hand with the ball while i'm going for the lay up , te ball (with my hand on it) hit my cheek , den i release it , n score , lol
den i go eat wif Ah Bu and Chin Shen at mac , den I go Yuhua cc train , train till my whole body going to crush alrdy ... lol
anw overall , CNY's fun becux of:
RedPackets
BahGua
Ahma n AhKim 's Salted Cashewnut
Ferrero Rocher
n chatting wif her
omg , i nid to b more hardworkin , i dun wan go out alone on valentine's day
plying basketball on 11:07 PM
Monday, January 26, 2009
CNY
hmmm , today kana pang seh by some online friend , nvm , den i go to find my mum at her workplace , den go home , den go to MaYim for reunion dinner , damn expensive
den after tt , go bck home , pack , go jp , find lesean they all , we decided to watch InkHearts , den ply arcade , ply initial d , lost 2 win 2 vs a stranger , bt my fingernail inside bleeding , dunno y oso ...
den we go to watch the Inkhearts , quite nice , den me n Lesean and Samuel go take last train bck , n nw i'm home ..
lol , den i was lik thinking of CNY n hw i'm gonna miss lion dance ...
hoping my princess will appear b4 valentine's
plying basketball on 2:47 AM
Sunday, January 25, 2009
CNY
^Opps , i forgot the first guy name , bt he's a nice guy , followed by Joshua , Samuel n me
~Today
morning , go for Nelson's training , den David also there , taught me alot of secret skills , den I go home , buy food for mum , pass chin shen the money for yl's bday present , dn go service
waited for kaixiang for bout 15 min at the bus stop den we go to the overflooding room which is for ppl who cannot gt into the B4's main auditorium ..
dn , at the service , pastor kong talk abt the chinese and the christian's linkage , n it made me felt more comfortable , rly , cux it showed tt mayb , there's a higher chance tt I did the right thing coming to church and nt feel too guilty abt it , dunno hw to rly explain it , bt ... ya ...
dn , when i hear lion dance troupe , it made me felt rl sad , learning so many yrs for lik nth , plus so long nv ply , sure rusty alrdy , my hardwork to perfect my moves has gone to drain , rly drained ...
ohya , we have the shi zhi lu kou , a food game , lol , v fun , den still gt the telematch , rly enjoyed myself today , the offering and the money used on the game n all tt is rly worth while for today as it exchange for my happiness ..
bt mayb i nv give enuff offering den still cnt have a princess appear b4 me
the only sad thing is today dunno y , Sandrea n Jia Qi lik nv talk to me much , mayb cux Elvis n the other Melvin nt here ..
bt lucky due to the game , still gt talk to Jia Qi , n my favourite Lesean , still gt Nana , so it's still nt lik tt emo ... plus gt Chin Ming and Douglas who make me laugh..
anw , sms evryone CNY msg n first time so many ppl reply bck , bwahaha , tt's a great one , love it when alot of ppl sms me at once
plying basketball on 12:44 AM
Saturday, January 24, 2009
End of Yr 2
^The only class picture we've taken this sem
~Wed
didn't ply bball n cut my hair until lik above , without moustache as well ...
den i eat reunion dinner wif my ah ma n uncles and aunts ... den go home , den slp
~Thursday
the last lesson with my favourite facilitator(teacher, the one who stands beside me in the pic)
he rox man , he motivated me alot during my difficult times with the PHP codings ...
he even brought us to Swensens , dn treat each of us a GoldRush with me eating the leftover odd one out , which meant I eaten two , den still treat Keith to Spaghetti which is v expensive (Keith cannot eat ice cream due to sensitive teeth)
dn I again nv ply bball , watch Absolute Boyfriend , den it's lik wanna shed a tear drop for the main character , who is named Knight or Night(depend on translation) and he's rly lik a Knight who protect he's princess at the strt , in the end he got what he deserve , true love fm he's owner ..
bt jux when he finally win over her heart , he is going to b dismantled ... haix ...
~Friday
last day and John Yap abit slacker , so do we , den after sch , me , marvin , Joanna and Kah Mun eat dinner together , first time eat wif these three , den walk to mrt station ... den go hm , pack bag , ply bballl
was plying quite ok , at least win matches which I feel we deserve winning and didn't lose any matches at rly demoralising score or mood ..
when will my princess come and lie on my shoulder , tell me tt she treat me as her prince ??
plying basketball on 12:59 AM
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
I will b a KNIGHT
~Monday
went to ply bball after sch wif David at old shelter , den rush home straight to chat wif Sandrea , lol , bt halfway knee pain , so use brisk walking until i reach one traffic light n a carpark away frm home den run again ...
That's where all the gd things come , I have gd frens I knw frm going to the church , n even someone I trusted enuff to tell her more about me ..
~Tuesday
plyed bball in sch after UT n was lik alot of ppl throwing shots after shots which made me feel so lik diao ...
den ply match in YuHua , suppose my form came bck , n was lik hiting shots after shots , quite unstoppable in some way ... lol ... bt got one only 15 yrs old n he's plying alrdy at a high level of basketball ..
the bad thing was however , going home n gt scolding for nth frm my mum , was lik I did not wash my leg (cux she thought I was wearing shoes wif socks) denshe keep nagging v loud .. she nv even inspect evrything n all tt , until i tell her i jux washed leg frm my fren's hus , den wear slippers home den she shut up ... bt i knw she care for cleanliness v much , so cnt blame her or whad ...
Today , help my mum do housework , dn shave my moustache , positive thing being I can smoke thru n tell bus driver i still sec sch student , bad thing being strangers might mistake me for a 15 yrs old or even younger ...
den i going to cut hair as well , new yr whad , bt dunno y mux have two reunion dinners lor ... v funny one .. lik tt make me cnt ply bball alrdy ...
haix , life is bored , so bored , without a gf
anw , back frm cutting hair , den it's lik on the way , I keep thinking , girls always thought knight n prince is the same , bt it's quite different , a prince is someone who is charming n the person the girl will b with , while knight is some sort of servant who serve the princess , sometimes , I wanna b a prince as well , bt i can't , but looking at it possitively , being a knight , i wun hurt the girl n I will always b the one to cheer her up when the prince upsets her , so y nt ?
plying basketball on 1:05 PM
Sunday, January 18, 2009
responsible for my choice
well , didn't post for quite a few days , anw , it's all the same , wed n thursday , Basic Theory Lesson 1.02 and Practice , haix , hope the Basic Theory Test can pass ..
n I cnt rly rmb whad happened the past few days , except tt my bball has it's ups n downs , gt some matches miss alot bt there r also some matches where I'm lights out , bt overall I'm still doing fine I guess .. Ohya , n i throw away one of the best shoe I've owned cause there is a hole at the bottom alrdy n my mum does not let me keep it
My poor T Mac 6 , I will miss u
~Saturday
went to teach zhi hui n zhi sian some bball stuffs b4 I attend the cell grp meeting .. tt's my first ever cell grp meeting , I've been to services in various churches alrdy , bt nv a cell grp meeting , so tt's my first , n all I can say is that it has a v high spiritual feeling , lik u cn rly feel the ambience , some sort of lik my dad's temple , except tt it's christian ..
den go ply bball wif teng hui n jonas at goodview and was off form until the last match where i consecutively burned chee fong in the face with my lightning jumpers ,
~Sunday
^The first group to arrive at the airport
^The entire group which went to send farewell to Jin Cheng
Amber ask us to go to send Jin Cheng to airport and she nv come , lol , n stupid thing is I've never even speak a sentence to this girl b4 , n i go to bid farewell to her , bt tt's ok with me la , wah , got one girl called Sarah nv wear specs , look v nice sia .. lol
hmm ... anw , saw the air hostress also , rly all v nice figure sia , lik at least is skinny one
hmm ... anw , saw the air hostress also , rly all v nice figure sia , lik at least is skinny one
^Douglas is a vampire !!
^The Marines , proud n strong
den go to Church service , super tired , bt couldn't slp , den it's lik after tt got one game called battle of the Sea , den I'm the one holding to the map(lik a useless king on a chess who cannot kill anyone , only ability is have the ultimate ans to the final treasure ..
so i go ard telling ppl my role is spy so i'm lik noone catch me even if they c me , bt I always camp so no ppl find me also .. dn i go take train wif Paul , Jia Qi , Leon , Lasean and my best buddy in the church , Elvis ..
after go home , i straightaway go to ply bball lerhx , dn halfway saw my ex , yee teng .. haix ... lol .. n Damien crack he's ankle bone if i not wrong ... wow ..
sometimes , I'm thinking whether I've made the right decision on christmas eve , to go to watch drama wif Melvin , if I had bear wif the loneliness , I could have been less troubled now , I got to strike a balance , sometimes , it stresses me .
I try to prove to myself tt all religions are either co exist together or dun exist at all , bt there is no prove tt either is a fact .. haix , how I wish I can believe in both , nt tt I wanna ask for more protection or whad , I just wanna still b frens with the cell grp members and still b able to lead the life I've been thru the last 18 yrs .. well , if my dad finds out I go to church , I can't believe whad will happen to me , if the outside world finds out , worst case , my dad will have a bad stain ...
if I had nvr gone for the church drama , I could have spent more time on my bball , my team , waste less money on transport , n I do not have to worry bout offerings n building funds and afraid of seeing whad my frens said , satan's evil form , most imptly , i do not have to make myself look lik a two headed lonewolf , a christian at church n wif melvin , a buddhist/taoist in front of my best friends and parents
but if I had nv gone for the church drama , I dunno hw long it would have been to gt to changi airport again , n gt a wider social circle , I wun b able to meet ppl like Elvis , Sandrea , Joshua , Kai Xiang , Lasean , Sarah , JiaQi , Leon , Paul
nv ever
noone will understand whad I'm going thru I guess , it's a stress , especially when I go for service all tt n hear the songs , it's not jux lik a betrayer to my former religion , or my other religion , bt most imptly , it's a betrayal to my dad , who grooms me , who reproduce me , who gave me my basic needs and also fulfil my wants , who is my role model . It is basically , just so stress , n when I have to pray , it made me felt so guilty to my dad , it's lik i've made a grave mistake ..
when Jia Qi told me off in the sms , I knw she didn't mean it , she didn't wan to scold me or whad , n i understand tt she jux wan me to b more faithful to the GoD , which to her , is a smarter choice , I nt sure if she will listen to my situation or tell me tt it's an excuse or whad .. I dunno how any of my cell grp members will react ..
^Lion dance statue at JP2 entrance
How I missed Lion Dance , at least my life was occupied by more stuffs than I have when I'm solely concentrated on bball , bt bad thing is we do not have enough students and our lion dance troupe is near the verge of ending .. =(
how i wish tt at points lik this , I can lie on my gf's shoulder(bt i dun have any gf nw ) n cry(which I will rather shed blood to tears) , ask for her opinion , seek her advice , have a listening ear ..
haix , sometimes ppl jux dunno hw sad I am cux I always look either calm or funny ..
plying basketball on 11:16 PM
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Copy Bryant
Yesterday , hmm , quite emo , den is lik help my mum do housework , den ply bball , den go to celebrate yuan li's bday , at the celebration , we talk ghost stry n me n desmond's stry made evryone's hair stand including ourselves , so scary
Today , slack at home watch Lakers vs Miami live streaming , den go to sch do ut , waah , damn difficult , den go to yuhua to ply bbal , den go hm , was plying quite well in a few matches n made many clutch shots as well , den i go home
anw , evryone's having different kind of emotions today , becux of the release of the O lvls result , which I think is v difficult this yr , but I hope tt those who r disappointed wif their results to nv give up as it's nt lik they are at wit's end , there is still private schools and ITE .
my emotion , however is down , when u become a clown , when ur greatest secret is of no importance , when ur presence is nt felt , when noone in this world is down at ur position at this point of time , u will b in the same position as I am
plying basketball on 12:50 AM
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Immune to pain
Yesterday
had my first driving lesson , den go to have some shootaround wif sean n thian seng at Hong Kah North , den go to wait for teng wif jonas at he's house downstairs den we go eat kfc den go to shelter court den we team wif Bah Gen n we nv lose once , at tt point , I'm still nt so hot up
but later on , we go to goodview play , I was on fire , scoring , passing , driving , almost evrything , lol .. gt one ball even more nice , i block a shot , clear theball , pass bck a bounce pass den jonas hand touch it a bit n the ball roll between he's leg to teng hui who score , lol
dn me n teng go csc to find yl n chin shen they all den we go alif eat den go hm slp , den today morning , haha , late for church , den sty at home help mum da shao chu for CNY , lol
Sometimes , people jux dunno how sad I am , dunno how disappointed I am , how painful I am , it's nt tt I am immune to pain or regenerate my skins n cn replace sadness with happiness , it's becux i always expect the worse n becux it all occurs too much that I'm numb of it all ...
plying basketball on 1:33 PM
Saturday, January 10, 2009
CouLd that havE been avOidable ?
Saturday
couldn't rly ply bball much , so was slacking , bt discovered the flash first step
Sunday
went to church , den after tt ply captain's ball , guess i was the best defender , bt gotten injured cux of tt , nt jux wrist injury , oso gotten scratches and blood , eeyer , lol , den i eat wif elvis n sandrea at JP lol , lucky they oso nv say grace b4 meal ..
Monday
sch reopen , nth much special , after tt , go to yusong's training , only me n rubin , den i vs two arrogant tall guys n win , lucky , den i learn defense n all tt den go home liao
Tuesday
went to ply bball wif jonas n he's bro after sch , den it's lik was plying v nervous , lol , couldn't ply my own ball game
Wed
go register for Driving Centre's member , n officially a student of driving sch , give me 4 months , i will become a racer ...
den go to eat wif zihao at jp , den it's lik v funny , we shop ard aimlessly den go home , lol
Thursday
went to ply bball wif jonas after sch again , this time , i learn bball frm a guy called david who is damn zai , lol den he ask me to take a lookout for lin zhi jie , who is a pro taiwan baller .. hehe
n my mid range jumper is coming bck abit , lol
Today
te john yap damn cb , nearing end of the semester still lik tt ply us , den after sch , went to vivo shop for 1 hour plus (wait for zihao n yong sheng ) den we go to eat at an expensive restaurant , den go to shop for another 1 hour plus b4 we watch ong bak 2 , which is quite satisfactory , the stunts v gd bt storyboarding wise nt so gd , message nt delivered to the audiences , den we go home alrdy
dn come home , chat wif cleo , hmm , tt's all , clue ? i gt put , bt discover urself ba , i think u cnt outwit the clue as well .. lol
hais , jux hope the new yr is gd , been lonely for yrs alrdy .. i wan lie on ppl shoulder also mux go mcdonald's outside lie on the bench's ronald mcdonald's shoulder liao ... haix .. n thinking of the fights recently , or say quarrel , could have avoided thm , hmm , guess i still nid to have a cooler head
plying basketball on 2:13 AM
Saturday, January 03, 2009
From bad to worse
Thursday
Li Quan called me some sort of early , bt i was awake , so I go to bball court to wait for him , den alot of players alrdy , so we went to eat chicken rice wif peanut soup , v nice , den we go bck train basic stuffs , den melvin came n urge us to go to Boon Lay to ply bball , den it's lik , actually I 90% knw tt it will rain if we go there , but I just go lor ..
den I cycle halfway go on an unfamiliar shortcut which made all my hair stand..
reach there , strt to rain , n jux hide under the block lor , den cycle bck to shelter court ply , plyed wif jun xiong they all n was lik a bit of on form , but after tt go on a even more terrible shooting slump ..
den heard the news bout the dividing of the cell group , which is v sad for me cux as I'm new , seperating from Damien n Jonathan , who though are newfound friends , but are people who get me comfortable in the new surrounding .
after which , go out slack wif teng hui , den he come my hus n we slept over my house ..
Today
go eat lunch with Teng , Joey , Sandra , Jolynn , Rika n all of em , but to me , I'm jux eating wif teng , haha , den saw both Chze Kuan and Aloy within lik 10 min , haha , both ppl who shud b hating me to the core , lol
den i go home , vacuum the floor , den go to ply bball wif teng hui , nelson , xin xun , all of them n later , bah geh , are so gd , lucky gt them , cux i'm in a shooting slump , n lucky , they all pro enuff to keep the game on ..
den , after tt , eat wif xin xun at KFC , eat 4 consecutive meals of chicken , shud b load of proteins now ba , haha , gd
after tt a guy call rong hao , dunno whad crazy mind he have la , i dn mind he ply tight defence if either light is on n it's a heated match , or if he is pro enuff to do so , but he is neither
so i jux charge at him n he angry , haha , hey , dun say i guai lan , bt i dunno y ppl angry , deep down i will b quite hpy , especially if they offend me , plus he after tt keep pointing fingers at me , wtf , aha lik he point alrdy he cn shoot better , run faster or pass better than me , wth
bt at least if those who knw me sure knw , i was even more guai lan , bt i got say sry one la , haha nt lik i nv say sry b4 , i say few thousands of sorries to pretty girls alrdy , jux treat him as one lor , bt i heard he doesn't say it easily , so when he said it to me , deep down quite hpy
well , i thought of rly being an actor , i do have the potential in tt i guess
plying basketball on 12:16 AM
Thursday, January 01, 2009
Can Life Ease Out ?
Hmm , this is my first post for the new yr , actually , today was jux bball n during the countdown , i was chatting with one of the older players in the shelter court , so nth much special happen for today ..
bt reflecting on last yr , many things has happened , hmm , first starting with the three major injuries I have , fracture(not dislocate) wrist and ppointer finger , den my back which made me half handicapped for days ,
den i also have shooting slumps this yr , which cause me to keep chnging my shooting mechanics , n I also dun have a girl friend this yr
bt there are also positive things which happens this yr , I have more friendly classmates this yr , I get closer to Marcus and ZiHao this yr as well , as well as making friends wif Damien and Melvin
the other positive things are lik my MY 3 on 3 medal which I'm still v proud of , n tt I've gone travelling without my family for once ..
so many things (these r nt all ) , have happened in jux one yr , bt whad I hope is tt our chain of friendship dun break here , remain unbreakeable , move on , improve my bball which cn earn me more accomplishments and get a gf soon , haha
while cycling hope , there's this person i kept thinking abt , well , we r still having a cold war , for quite a long time , well , it doesn't matter , she alrdy has a bf so .. ya , anw , dun say me timer or whad cux XinYi , lik i said , is alrdy past
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