Monday, October 29, 2007
fading away frm evryone ... except those closest
den it's lik howeve .... lucky to make some new frens lik hui ying ... n oso having gd frens lik Teng Hui , Yuan Li and Leslie ... all these are people who have been there for me for yrs ...
well ... another thing i really still have , is really just my basketball skills ..
i wan to have a wider social circle (actually is just to wan to have gf ) bwahahaha =P
sign off peaceout
plying basketball on 11:30 AM
Sunday, October 28, 2007
Leg n arm seriously weak
today whole day shagged .. go to basketball court in the morning and it was lik so damn HOT ... i was going roasted .. so me n zhi hui n leslie play NBA live 08 in my hus after tt ...
well .. den i went to play basketball later ... waah ... today oso play quite serious ...
den it's lik sianster .. my shooting touch is nt there anymore ... dunno y ... think i concentrated too much on driving in or because of my muscle crampness ... well ... yesterday i still completed the 50 push up n sit up regardless of te pain ... sobx ...
den it's lik saw Yida's bro
who is a pro ,
who win he's bro
in basketball ...
well tt's it ... the whole day's gone ... my leg is lik v weak ,
can't walk properly nor kick
.. den hands are stiff cause of muscle cramping
... wtf ... n my bday coming ...
well ... love to try to rhyme wordies ... peace out x=
plying basketball on 10:20 PM
Step by step ...
Well ... today , i had two considered gifts n two bad news too ...
well ... in the morning ... my sis help me make my hair ... tt's cool ...
well ... my mum says that i've $180 in my piggy bank alrdy .. n tt my birthday present from dad wil most likely be $80 - 100 so i could have gotten rich ...
well ... i went out wif Xinyi , to bt panjang ... den i buy NBA live 08 ... omg ... bt it does not make much difference and might b worse den 07 ...
well ... den i find tt using boston , cleveland , phoenix suns or miami heats are good ...
today ,played wif some pros ... my highlight should be a double pump lay up in the air ... tt's gonna earn me a great flash back ...
den ... ... well ... one of the philipenes pro told me to build my confidence when shooting , dun always wry shots wun gt in ... well tt was a obstacle for me ... hard to overcome ... n it's lik edwin's ball lost ... plus is only lik less den two month since he bought it ... damn those thieves ... steal basketball ... fkers ... noob player , if i find em i sure challenge em n win bck the bal for edwin ... bt i think probability of seeing em in hong kah north cc is lik 0.000001 barhx ...
anw ... tt's the bad news ... second bad news is i feel tt my muscles are aching for days n nth seems to help ... so i've been thinking of lessen my workout load ... well ... by twice ... =( i know tt's lik skiving bt my body rea;;y can't take it ... jux nw , even when i reached twenty push ups .. i can feel tt i'm collapsing... cux my muscle cramp is more pain when i do more sit up n push ups ..
hate it ... after tt operation , my physical condition seems to deteoriate alort ... hope i can attain bck wad's mine ....really hate it ... when i push up ... the pain is jux lik the pain of loneliness in my mind ... well ... mentally n physically cramped ...
as for the workout thingy ,.... i hate to say this bt i wil b doing it step by step ... 50 in a day , 70 in a day , 90 in a day , 110 in a day , till 140 in a day for each ... well ... i know it might take v long ... bt my body really can't take in excess workout ... need time to let it get use to all these ... ='(
plying basketball on 1:05 AM
Friday, October 26, 2007
my picture blog
Anyway , i got one blog which i put more pictures den words .. ya ... i didn't post for long in tt ... bt will b strting to post again after today cux i feel i have some pictures i would lik to share wif some of u here ... hehe ...
http://kira-adores-lacus-.blogspot.com/
lol ... anw ... todays' problem is v stupid n choun meng giving me phoebia of coming to class ... i think is lik tt spell ... well ... i come in will scared of he's low blow ...
going to do my work liao ... bb
plying basketball on 11:06 AM
Thursday, October 25, 2007
my workout ... omg ..
yo ... today ... lesson was v difficultl ... days were stress ...
finally hear her talking to me ... bt it was only tt one sentence ...
n Szemin wear tt kind of clothing v nice ... it's lik the hole for the neck (of the shirt ) is extended to the shoulder and is short sleeve .. tt kind of nt revealing ... bt nice clothing ...
Hope to see her wearing skirts ... wonder hw it will look lik ... sure wun look suitable ...
well ... today after sch , come hm den slack ... dunno wad to do ... den xin yi dunno for wad lik i dot she will angry ... bt dot is my trademark wad ...
n smile always also la ...
den tt sze min's stead ... dunno wad he trying to do ... till so late still dun send sze min home ... so irresponsible la ... holiday still nvm ...tomolo gt sch sia ...
den jux nw i did some workout ... jux simple one is getting me all tired out ... 100 push up n 100 sit up ... fair ?
well ... strength and stamina is deteoriating alort since tt operation ... well ... i've been more of a humilator on court nw ... last tym ... though i duno hw to do difficult on air moves , bt when driving , i'm faster , solid and also more decent ... nw , my dribbling moves are all full of stunts and humilating ppl ... though still earn respect , bt oso gt ppl hate me this type of player ... well ... sian ...
tt's y i trying to gt my physical back to tt time ... hope i can ...
plying basketball on 10:16 PM
about clouds ...
Well ... last post i was actually going to talk bout it bt i forgot ... so the first para for today is to talk bout clouds ... i slowly trying to admire clouds alrdy ... cux was in the bus , listening to songs den saw the sky ... omg ... the clouds are forming some sort of spaceship for the independance day ...
I feel that independance day is nearing ... n the movie realy depict tt ... i feel tt it is nice ... n the clouds frm two days ago really sat me wonder whether it is a spaceship warning ...
but then ... sun set is even nicer ... it's romantic ...
well ... yesterday , in class ... stupid chounmeng go n hit my vital part twice .. den after sch he hit again ... den lik nt tt pain ... den i go revenge ... bwahaha ... first time ...
well ... iit's jux nt tt nice to have tt ... always muz cautious ...
n go gek poh sell yesterday ... den lik so fking no customers la ... wtf ... den hungry ... den it's lik i play basketballl tt time did a fading lay up left handed .
den i go hm tt time ... i feel tt i shud nt sell ice cream anymore ... can't earn much ... plus lik cheating my mother ... haix ...
den in class ... it's lik ... dunno hw to say ... wanna find ways to let my eyes off a person bt can't ... well ... it seemed lik it's my armagedoon ...
hope i still play basketball well ... especially with my left hand back ... if there wasn't tt operation ... i guess i would have been better ... plus i will still have my 6 abs ... haix ... sian ...
plying basketball on 8:34 AM
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
clouds are nice ...
well ... today , in class , nth to do , so played nba live 07 ... den won ... den daniel was so funny ... he say that he watch me play , tt's the strength n key to my victory ... well ... can say so actually ...
haha
den the whole day is so normal ... well ... go ce talk was the most stupid one ... rp might b perfect if there is no nid for 40 CE points to graduate .
after sch , go for comic ig meeting , first time went ... there are alort of wierdos down there ... especially fish ... well ... they say i v quiet ... mux speak more ... i think my class will nv ever say tt tu me ... haha ... cux i was kinda noisy in class ... bt den at the manga thingy , we came out wif a nickname so tt it's convenience for calling ... den i came out wif lonewolf ... dun wan say sasuke though there is one person calling himself Ichigo ...
well ... den gt one girl call umehiko ... real name forgot liao ... anyway ... she v cute la ... manga lunatic ... even more den soophia of my current class ...
den the whole manga thing is so ... nvm ... better nt disclose too much ... well ... i shall think of wad i shud draw as tt is my hmwk for the IG ...
well ... there r things i dunno hw to explain ... in class , or elsewhere ... i try to avoid lookin in tt direction bt dunno y my eyes still kip fixing on her... smth is wrong ... well ... forget it ... =(
plying basketball on 10:46 PM
Monday, October 22, 2007
hmm ... well ... dreams r vertically opposite ... so ...
well .. yesterday nite , had a bad dream ... i wun lik tt girl no matter wad ... at least for nw ... i smhw hate her character somewhere ... well ... guess wad ? i today go sms her apologize to her if i offended her n she nv reply ... wtf ... even the other classmate who i last offended oso better den her la ...
den today class quite ok ... bt towards the end , it''s lik ... our team no resources ... actually is my fault ... cux today though i nt team leader bt i've been the one voicing out most during 2nd break , so i am to blame for tt ... sry team mates ...
den in class , took class foto ... thought it was a v stupid thing ... when ppl pose tt way ... nt natural ... hmm ... bt since they hpy , plus nt my prob ... den let it b ... dun tink i was even in the photos cux i was standing nt tt near ... preferred those lik sporty type of ppl pose ... lik all will look so cool ... lik my fast 201 team one ... wee ...
anw ... v sian , tumolo ut ... den today sell oso nt v well ...
reallyy feel life's meaningless as days passed ... when will i ever meet the true one ?hope wad the waffle auntie say was true ... I am able to gt a girl easily ... well ... it's the opposite ...
anw .. oso hope nt all dreams come true ... bb
plying basketball on 10:59 PM
Sunday, October 21, 2007
Bitter strt ... will the He Wei ever surive b4 youth cup ?
today lik damn shagged ...
soggy things happened ... went there den lik i'm the fist n everyone were like omg ... more than 10 min late ... den strt training all nt serious ... smtimes they shud jux know hw it feels being in my position la ... i in sch mux study , after sch mux do rj , den still mux think of training n future plannings ...weekends still mux train em ... wad they take me for ... fk it ... smtimes ...
den anyway ... after tt haf 5 on 5 ... den i was lik a bit stupid , hit ppl on the head wif the bball .. den even did the and 1 move ... (push the ball one side behind he opponent n go behind him frm the other side to gt the ball ) den those ppl agitated den try to play rough on teng hui dn we nearly fight ... omg ...
den we eat alrdy go sheltered court to play , den we had sudden death 1 on 1 ... den after tt zhi hui challenge me to freestyle ... lik camilo , he abit kiasu ... bt den i obviously won ... den he say t actually shud b loser ball means he gain possesion of bal i i score ... wtf ... he shud have said it during , nt after the match ...
n we go west mqall , den i come hm ... den saw my classmate tagging me again ... this time she says she real ... well ... have to belive ,... though it's unexpected ... bt she's splitting her head alrdy ... mayb it's since tt incident barhx ... sry bout it den ... well ... hey ... dun say i lie , can check my internet history , i viewed her blog evryday ... n her blogskin on top pic oso changed two time this wekk ... dnno wad happened ... well ... it's jux nwt great asking her things nw cux ... welll ... there's a glass in between us nw , at least to me ...
n to he wei members (who doesn't know this blog exist , except a few ) plz b more serious duing training ...
to my dear frens ... argh ... my birthday's coming , i gonna b treating ppl ... (hope i dun nid to ) n i nid to buy present for pei ling , mayb amanda as well , n some ppl who had their bday falling in november , n three days after my b day , it's the zoological garden visit(wtf is tt a class outing , sounds more lik half a class outing ) well ... it's money broking time ... den i still nid to buy Adidas Kevin Garnett Bounce n Sony Ericcson W660I n lastly , try to buy NBA Live 08 n buy a cake for myself ...
n to tt person who is refering to me in her nick (well ... i suppose she is , n she is most probably holding grudges against me ) well .. winner dun call emselves winner .. u feel u r a winner ? the fact is so much vice versa , if u feel that no losers can impact ur life , u r the only loser left impacting ur own life ...
well ... i hope to say this to u ... i thought we can b gd frens ... bt u jux wanna tel me how pathetic u r ... lookin at u ... i can tell it myself ... hope u b less humble n we cn b gd frens
plying basketball on 6:21 PM
mayb there's a save to this whole thing(mayb asi said)
anw ... nth to blog abt ... except that ... yesterday , i played ABCshootout wif an aged uncle , den i win him first round , den he win me second round ... omg ... it's a draw ... den we have 5 balls 2 point shootout ... c hu cn score the most out of he's free throw ... den in the end , both oso scored 4 n missed 1 ... omg .. i actually drawed wif an aged uncle in my own homecourt ... if i ever have a chance , i will show him to zhi hui they all ... to teach them a lesson tt there is always someone higher den u ...
n today , went to play basketball wif zhouji ... den it's lik he is troubled in he's class ... yeah ... communication prob ... y mux singaporeans b so lik tt ??? i really smtimes dun uds ... china ppl come here starting sure can't speak eng well ... bt y nt try to teach him n speak wif him in simple english n all ?? isit so difficult ??? i dun really uds ... math den wan him , other modules den dump him ... i really feel unfair for him ...
den it's lik team having a v big revolution ... n i feel happy when estee talk to me recently , nt lik jux once or twice , bt quite a number of times ... when she tok to me jux nw n even rmb tt i lik hebe ... i was so touched ... bt eww... mayb i was dreaming or smone was hacking her com ... imposter or whatever ... bt at least tt person did it for a good cause ...
well ... i nid to slp ... dun expect myself to b late tomolo morning for training ...
plying basketball on 1:50 AM
Thursday, October 18, 2007
one yr passed ...
Well today , it's like keep thinkin of the past , it was jux one yr b4 , when i broke wif the person who is nvr to be replaced by anyone else in my heart forever ...
well .. though i can't say i still love her , bt it's lik a scar , mixture of happy n sad memories in it ..
anw ... in class , nth much happened , evrything was as normal , ut as difficult as ever ...
den after sch ,i go to sell ice cream , den play basketball b4 i really sell ... actually it's y i wanted to selll oso ... I dun care about earning money , clearing trolley , it's jjux bonus ... to me , my main motivation is to play basketball at different areas and courts to challenge against the top .
anw , the court i went today is erm ... well ... nt tt pro ... it's lik , ppl keep getting stunned and even teammates oso dunno when i pass , teng hui ask me stop doing more dribbling moves ... as i was lik fooling the ppl on the court ... well ... u can't blame me , it makes me feel satisfied this way ...
den when i sell ice cream , was damn tired n teng hui was lik clinching as much deal as he can .. i nv see such a money minded promoter b4 ... mayb tt's the fact of life barhx ... ppl keep asking for more moneey and spend them on things lik present n such which might nt b necessities ...
den anw ... he could tell tt i was thinking of tt incident a yr ago , came to think of it ... it's really long ... 1 yr n 3 month ago , met wif this girl who i lik , really lik , first time have tt feeling in my entire life ... n it chnged my life ... n in an instance , dreams n hopes turned nightmare for me ...
well , i could have closed one eye and trust her , bt i can't bring myself to , to me , it's all too obvious ... sometimes ... i really angry , bt i can't bring myself to ... bt i dun think i have any real relationship after her ... doubt i even have a fake one either ...
waah ... n class having outing 3 days after my bday ... omg ... den sze min's cousin look so kawaii n chio larhx ... if only i was tt young ... hahaha ... copy yesterday tt prob statement ...
plying basketball on 11:01 PM
fk fk tiring day
yup ... it's a damn tiring day ... y did i post ??? cux i wan this to sty as memory ...
today , went to sch as usual , saw estee on the bus ... den go buy waffle den saw sze min ... haha ...
anw ... only talked to sze min though ... den i went to class , was lik damn tired .. wad the fk happened ... anw ... to cut things short , at least ppt was done , tt's it ... den find tt the topic today suits me alort ... yeah ...
after sch , sm shocking news ... bt nvm ... den go tu jp den go sell icr cream , nt really ... more than 30% of the time is basketball ... it's lik the person there so damn fk up ... lose liao dun admit ... den play rough ... den i say they strong , den tt guy kaobei say i sarcastic ... if nt i tired n tt teng hui's fren(who teamed wif us) was nt tt pro ... (dn say till too wad ) , we would have trashed ya la ... den it's lik he step on me when i going to take shot or strt running ... den i jux have to use poison on poison , i run faster den him , see how he can step on me, den he play banging after a few balls , i really feel so angry tt i blow a goodbye kiss before a shot , nice shot ... he of course angry , bt can't do anything ... wahahaha ... anw , i was doing most of the scoring n teng hui was the one who assist me .. bt it felt nice , cux it's lk evrytime also let him take too much burden ... n he n joey going 1 yr liao , congrats ... i know it's hard to maintain it , kudos to ya ...
anw , tomolo gt ut ... wtf ... den today , ice cream sell v badly ... den plus teng hui say he frm ngee ann poly ... omg ... wtf ... bbq ... hahaha ...
den tt customer say he oso frm np ... i nearly laugh my ass out la ...
anw ... sign off ...
plying basketball on 12:39 AM
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
cleared a trolley again ...
today , it was quite a lucky day , my persistance kept me thru the day ... morning , ut , i really confused on what to do cause i concentrate alort on sem 1 in the end lik none of the qns on sem 1 ... omg ... jux hope i could pass it ... really ...
den it's lik ... in class ... strting i was boiling hot as the teammates lik ignoring me ... dun even know they is deliberately or joking .. in the end ..i know i cannot repeat my mistake ... if i dun try to chng this stubbornness of myself ... i will have no hope of being even frens wif her , dun say anything closer den tt(i mean best fren arh ... dun think wai wai ) ...
tt was the first step , n estee was the motivation , bt den ... dun think she know it as well ... it's wierd to have ppl motivated by u ... especially when ya r nt in gd terms ... haix ...
n anw ... den after tt go sell ice cream , same thing , i was lik so damn dun wan sell , bt in the end , when i thought all hope is lost , we sold finish , n managed to lik gotcha $45 dollars i think ...
it will have to add up to my savings for he wei , for my future , n for ... nvm ... this blog is lik more n more known to classmates , shudn't say much here either in future ...
plying basketball on 11:38 PM
Monday, October 15, 2007
my birthday wishes ...
anw ... today , class was normall ... except abt estee ... it's still her who is like furthest from me ... n though it's far , it's nt v far , when i peek at her , i can sense tt she know tt i'm lookin at her .. bt no choice .. u have to turn to tt direction at times , it's unavoidable ...it's liik he more i regret , the more i think of her , can toss ard the bed for times jux becux flashes of the wed n fri incident gets in my brain ...
anw ... my bday coming soon ... hoping something big will come ... lik ... having a great birthday wif teng hui n yuan li either before or after my birthday ....
receiving birthday greeting messages or comments ...
receiving great presents lik basketball , basketball shoe , gundam model or a self made card
pllaying basketball on my birthday n score my first fadeaway jumpshot .
going out wif frens on the bday itself ... hope it's a girl ...
n lastly ... hope to have a "her" who i can hold hand wif n kiss her forehead ...
bwahaha .. guess only the first two are more realistic barhx ... chounmeng was right .. smtimes , a person can't b so hum ji ... if i wan to apologize , i shud do it personally , if i wan to woo the person , i mux declare personally , if i want a present , mayb i shud ask for it personally as well =P
plying basketball on 9:15 PM
Sunday, October 14, 2007
Sharpshooter borned
today , nv eat breakfast 1 , 2 , lunch and tea break , can't believe it , such a gourmet king , torture he's stomach ... =(
anw ... jux nw play basketball , te wei also there ... disliking leslie's doing more n more ... he's lik more n more boastful ... i shudn't had taught him basketball bck den , 4 yrs ago ... time flies ...
n nw , he's lik boasting bout he's skills to evryone in cc , bringing ugly n fat girls to display he's skill ... isit tt honourable ??? I swear tt i've nv brought girls to the court n just play with the noob players on one half of the court just to display hw gd i am ...
for two consecutive weeks , n more even b4 ( i've nvr been to my homecourt for long) he's been nt playing wif us n older and more pro players ...
lol ... i really want to laugh at this kind of unhonourable act , basketball is for fun , nt for shine , even if u wanna shine , shine when u challenging pros , unless court no pro ...
anw .. for myself , i get another title liao ... first i pattern kia , nw i sharpshooter , improving my mid range games ... n cux all my shots were fadeaways , it makes them almost unstoppable ...
it's lik , today play wif those pros again and me n te wei were lik one defensive and one offensive ... he's also the one who occasionally made some nic shots ... i felt i mus not lose out ...
leslie finally came n shouted next team , challenging Bryan , the court's 3 point king , and the left hand speed demon , n Bing Hao , the tallest young player in Bt Gombak ...
and leslie n he's "dogs" gt trashed ... only scored one n the King of Courts were like 11 ... omg ... pathetic one ... me n te wei and one uncle only lost by one when we were playing against KOC ...den the KOCs sat down n rest , den it's lik leslie tried to gather the not so pro de ppl to play 4 on 4 , den he tied to score after a rebound den it's lik say he sprain he's leg ... which the KOCs know ... especially Bryan ...
Me , as he's mentor in the past , of cux know tt that is just a mild knock by the oppoonent , bt he exaggerate it to show tt he can score if he nv gt knock tt softly n tt he wan to escape from the scene of nt scoring from directly below the basket ... come on man ... even NBA players missed simple n easy baskets at times ... y dun jux admit ??? n c hw u play nw ? i am really disappointed .... is this the same person who i squeeze my brain juice out n waste my time to mould ???
anw ... i went to eat myself ... thinkin of wad happened on Wed and Fri ... i deeply regretted it ... these two days ... mcast another two flashbacks for me ... y do i always did wrongs ? And the ppl I'm closer to , i will hurt them more ... especially those loved ones ... hais ...
mayb it's to warn me nt to b close to anyone ... bt i could have stopped all my actions ... bt y do i always let my devil side take control of myself ??? Everytime i try to stop things i try to do , i'm always too late ... my mental control is really nt getting stable ... These recent yrs , it's even more ... wad shud i do ???
Thinkin abt it all , all these actions can easily b stopped by me ... nt hitting tt person , being more cooperative wif teammates , nt forming the basketball team , nt sayin vulgarities easily , y do i always act so rashly n y my my brain can't control my movements at times ???
am i only condemned to the basketball court ??? think only psychologist can help me .... =(
anw , also made a new findng , the less i eat b4 dinner , the lesser appetite i have for dinner , n tt the burning of calories in my body is tt of two times the calories i take in evryday when i play basketball ... no wonder i've been severely underweight for tt long ... nw things improved ... hope it jux gt bigger , i mean my muscles ... looks weak
plying basketball on 11:14 PM
shown em wad i've got
yeah ... look at the title ... i was quite rejoiced , yet disappointed yesterday ...
played basketball yesterday , nt training cux court was booked by a few teams of phillipenes who even brought referees and scoreboards along ... wtf ...
den we go 140 play , me , camilo n zi hui ... den it's lik they keep using disrespecting tones ... so i just guess i wasn't been up to the standard to them , such that they feel they should respect me as a coach ... so i should just show them tt i do have some skills ...
at 140 basketball court , it was raining , we shoot ard den suddenly shi hui proposed a sudden death 1 on 1 match means one onn one for 1 ball , winner in loser out , it's lik u score one ball , u win the match n u sty on the court ...
den i was lik lost once ... den i was out , omg ... den after tt , i made 6 consecutive win , means i scored six point , three each on the two of em ... i was so damn happy tt i shouted out "KING OF THE WORLD !!!"
bt obviously i know there r stronger ppl out there ... bt at least in bt batok and gombak region , or even at some places further , evryone will know this player who they say keeps playing stunts and pattern ... t's me ...
anw ... i lost to zhi hui again which stopped my wiinning streak , den i rested cux my knees couldn't take it plus it's cold when rain falls on u ...
den i go up and win another two times before i lose again , hoping i could score 10 wins , i went up again , bt lost ... bt i can feel the fire in my heart alrdy and tried again ... this time , i suceeded , 2 consecutive wins , i throw the ball up high n kneel down n shouted"10 times King of Kings"
after tt , we went to Bukit Batok CC to play basketball again , this time we play bullet ... haha ... camilo was moody ... mostprobably cux he lose ... i know he is a bit kiasu ... since the first time i played one on one wif him ... bt this is gd , competitive spirit ... anw , they win me in bulletz(free throw shooting competition)
den up came some friends who know me , come pat my shoulders joke wif me bout my pattern , cux i was quite well known there as a stunt player... den they say play 4 on 4... den we shoot from free throw line , players who score go one team ... den i score ... den was lik zhi hui n camilo purposely dun wan score ... den my teammates in the end were lik ... er hmph ... speechless ...
bt we did played impressive enuff ... zhi hui they all shud know tt well ... my assist were sucessful and even the worst player was able to score ... though we lost the first match ...
second match , i was getting it more to myself , shooting from the midrange wif my trademark fadeaway ... again n again , of course camilo n zhi hui was shocked cux they knew i will shoot tt , they gt up in my face bt i still score ... bt if u say there will b a person who tries to perfect he's fadeaway in bt batok , tt's me ... so it's nth strange to me ... as i am shorter , i tend to nid some jumping back motion to gt myself to score without getting blocks ...
at one point , camilo was playing rough wif me .. den i push him a bit wif my hand to gt him further , he come closer to me , n i seize the opportunity and AND1 him , getting the ball right above he's head and bounce it behind him , going behind him to reteive the ball , tt was the first time i did the goig above ppl head version ...
we won the second , but lost the third ,.. it was a close lost ...den zhi hui say walau y he keep getting faked by my passes ... deep inside ... i know tt ... he keep getting in the wrong flight where the ball is in the opposite direction ...
dn it's lik fourth one , i played more individual again , i pass to them n urge a pass bck , playin a pass and run , dn gt the scoring to 10 - 3 , all looked overconfident .. tt's y i regretted to score tt well ... it was lik my teammates were too happy tt they thought leting opponent score is nvm , still wil win ... (beginner skills=beginner thinking)
den it's lik in the end , camilo n zhi hui won , with their teammates , bt deep inside , i know tt i won em individually ... the match is almost lik 2 versus 4 , nth was getting better den this ...
den it's lik i gt one highlight in the game as well ... the real flashback ... i did a freestyle stunt , den evryone were lik dunno wad i'm up to , den i drive past zhi hui , and all of them in an instant for a lay up , evrything seemed so fast , evryone were stuck to their feet , till i look back n they look back at me , unbelievable ... first time i've shocked evryone to their feet wif my speed , including my teammate ...
so it was disappointing tt i've only won once , bt i've showed my he wei team juniors tt seniors are always just tt better ... especially those who are well known in courts ard ...
anw ...i came hm , tired ... den it's lik evryone's talking to me bout estee again ... hey man ... its nt i wan to avoid , bt i dun think even if it turns bck , she will treat me the same ...
it's also abt me nt having the courage to face her again ... evrytime i wanna c her face whether gt smile or nt , also must hide my face behind my labtop n peek wif one eye ... tt's so difficult ... i've nv been peeking at ppl in this manner b4 , lik he person discover i will b in hot soup lik tt ... so it's stressing ... nvm ... noone understand ... haha
plying basketball on 11:05 AM
Friday, October 12, 2007
didn't know wad to do bout it , so jux forget it ...
yesterday was fun , bt lookin at hw rp lost the match makes me down , i mean the boys .... but they did something terrific , something i would call miracle . Hong Yuan scored alort and even close the match gap frm 30+ points to 7 points ... wtf is tt ... isn't it lik god ? omgf ...
n the girls team played even better , especially number 7 , cute plus unselfish plus good passing skills ... think she older den me barh ... bt the girls were reallly strong in the inside ...
anw ... i duno hw to describe these few days , can feel the class alrdy hating me , at least a few of em ... really glad tt Daniel , Kennerve , Song Ren n Choun Meng still treat me like good friends , mayb they alrdy disliking me , you wun know ... bt they still cover it up so well ... if tt's the case , waah ... they r really wonderful classmates , n frens ...
still got still got ... u think tt's finished ??? hmmm ... there's still sophia , who though we nv communicated much , but when I needed her , she's always there . . .
n andrea who is lik my counsilor these few days , keep advicing me this n tt ... hehe ... still rmb tt she is called telepathy 1 by me when i dun know hw to pronounce her name ... there's still estee ... n this ... erm ... hard to say , i dunno y so sway ... bt things jux happen ... so ... well ... erm ... haha
anw ... today i became a party spoiler again ... woohoo ... it's lik hari raya or deepavali ... den shud b a joyous day but i somehw broke the sameness ...
there's a reason to evrything , this is not personal ... or mayb it is bt i nv realise ... anw ... it's also a form of coincidence ...
anw ... jux to cut things short ... yea ... i admit i have personal conflict wif some ppl ... for one of em , it's i keep the person's secret den she spread rumours abt me , ok , i take it as accidentally for first time , can say is joking matter , it's ok ... ii dun blame it , i warn the person , even told the person the real factual thingy , den the person spread again ... is it aids or wad sia ...hw many fk times muz she spread ?
den nvm ... bt i can feel tt i alrdy dun trust tt person , nvm , wednesday , it's a slack day for the ppl on the higher positions ... wtf is tt ... i can tell ... louise n estee ... I am sry ... bt this is the only way i handle things ... without much thinking ... sry for dragging ya down ... bt den i really can't tolerate it ...
den today , even worse ... it's lik a chicken feet topic tt i feel even if i dun study for ten yrs i oso can figure hw to do ... den they wanna short cut things , dun crack brain cells , jux plagia reference ... wtf ... we r here to study ... i dun care fk they doing , bt if faci know , i fall , plus i will feel guilty , lk hw i feel during science or computing ... bt den it's no fk way tt culture , enterprise or cognitive = copy ...
i can't stand it , really can't ... tell teacher , at least he knows it's wrong , bt oso , i know i'm in the wrong as well , putting poison to poison doesn't work ... bt den in the former class , i was used to do the second presentation , of course this was nt accepted in sem 2 , bt i hope tt at least this sent some warning to those teaming wif me , i am a crazy n cold hearted person who would selfdestruct to destruct others . . .
if that's wad the class is forcing me (or at least the groups) den i will hav to ... i can't tolerate , ain't no plagiarism ... n to estee , i am sorry , always treated u as one of the person who i feel i will b better wif in the class , bt smth lik tt happened , n twice , in these twice , u were in the same group wif me , so i dunno hw to explain this , bt the only thing i can do is continue wif this insane mode of myself n sry for nt explaining well to u or seeking for ur opinion nor accepting for ur help , cause getting involved wif ur presentation half way thru the middle makes me feel that I am plagiarising my own team ...
anw , signinng off here ... tomolo he wei first training ... watch out
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Thursday, October 11, 2007
a rich yesterday ... bt a tiring one ...
yesterday , was like ... in class , have conflict with my group ... bt it's lik dun wan her to be angry cux she is one of my favourite classmate ...
bt anw , i went to the NIE and lost my way cux i took wrong bus and went to NTU ... den took shuttle bus frm NTU to NIE ...
den did interview with theplayers frm NYP , they are kind man ...
den zhi hui oso came , den we go hm after tt... the matches were so exciting tt my mouth was wide open . , ,
den ... sian ... guess wad will happen ?? my closest classmate going to ignore me for rest of the sem lial ... sadded ... anw .. sign off ... going to UT liao
plying basketball on 8:48 AM
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
days of sianness
today is a v sian day , anw , cut my hair liao , wif my sis , tt day , at her bf's house downstairs ... v far , bt cheap ...
it's more spiky la ... haven played basketball wif tt hair until today ...
anw ... class has been ... haix ... dunno hw to say ... the more u uds ppl , the more flaws u c ...
n tt's y i try to wash off my impression of em n try to go close to em all once again n c em as flawless wif my utmost ability ...
of cux nt all have super big flaws ... noone is perfect , bt noone is inperfect as well ...
there are stil ppl in the class who i respect n lik v much , their charracter v ez going , such as chounmeng , kennerve,louise,songren,daniel,ebonyestee,hailing,sophia,chang rui ,muzafar(mustafa),ambarasi(anna),shar ...
lol ...mayb there's more , bt these r more memorable
bt den anw ... today the lesson sux , i dun even know what i was thinking of ... hope to leave the sch bt noway ... i wanna strive to work hard to push my gpa ... can't lose to the class ... haix ...
sian ness ... den today , played basketball at jurong there den it's lik ... the person's ball so bouncy , can't g used to it at first , ask him if can play wif him , he challenge me to 1 on 1 ... thought i was going dead cux he look confident ... den it's lik i haven even shoot once for warmup n the ball so bouncy ... den thought will lose ... in the end ... erm ... 7-1 ... was awesome ... cut hair liao have the speed momentum flowing in my body...
was v touched when estee said she wait for me to come bck ... lik got concern frm class mates lik tt ... anw ... it's lik she sick today ... guess evryone is headache today as well ... hope lesson tomolo will ease the class though i doubt so ...
i feel that the class is better den sem 1 in the sense that they accept my lameness ... bt den they dun acept my ideas n thought i was having fun thru out ... last tym sem 1 at least sm gt hear my advice barhx ... haix ...
den still gt alort of prob ... lik today , i tell em who i think is the belle n hunk of the class ... i say is sophia , estee,louise ,hailing,chang rui , chounmeng... den xinrou laugh ... so idiotic la ...beauty is in the eye of the beholder wad
hard to say ....
anw ... this week finally restrt he wei's training ... i guess i will still b the coach barhx ... sian ... hope they ting hua den i dun nid headache ... n hope i wun b so lonely ... have hand to hold ... so unfair ... one yr no hold hand ... den no best frens who are single ....WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!nnoone celebrates bday wif me liao ... sobx ... shall sign out here as rj is waiting for me ... the FLASHBACK...anw ... created my own gundam plot , n oso , gundam 00 came out alrdy ... haha... rmb to watch lor ... bb
plying basketball on 9:06 PM
Sunday, October 07, 2007
Yesterday was so hoopin up
yesterday , played basketball at BBCC wif some adults and Camilo ... tt wasn't nice... didn't had any teamwork .... den bought a 1.5 L Sprite Ice and ate Mac breakfast ... den sadly , we gone home .
I went to Leslie hus to retreive Te Wei's basketball , den go bck hm , planning to slp , bt in the end , I watched crossover 2 , 3 and 4 which i bought yesterday (finally , thx to chuang yi ) ...
den i go down play basketball wif te wei ... den it's lik i did two hot sauce move today (dribble the ball towards one direction behind the opponent and get around behind him from the opposite side to get back the ball ) and one oley(dribble the ball under the opponent's leg)
it was fun ... also did the air walk double pump ... tt move was lik a dunk , except tt the finishing was a runner shot . Did alort of turnaround jumpshots and fadeaways . Also had a few drive in move , including a power dribble which i planned for the flashback bt hand slips abit . The good thing is I've improved onn my post moves ... though i nt center , bt i trying to break the sameness la ... so tt i can keep up wif the future generation .
Anw ... sometimes really feel sucky , weekend nt basketbal den is arcade ... wan a mate !!!!!!!!!!!
plying basketball on 11:38 AM
Friday, October 05, 2007
The third week of sem 2=third week of sem1 ???
Anw ... my birthday coming liao la ... jux let me win !!!
From monday to yesterday , seldom play my playstation anymore ...
n zhihui they all exam finish = traiing going to strt again ...
anw ... Found that the flaws in the class is growing increasingly ... each classmates are showing abit more ...even myself ... strting to show more of myself in class ... which = irritating n annoying again ...
bt anw ... some frens are lik getting more n more highly of emselves when they r nt even tt capable alrdy ... so I feel tt as weeks passed , they will sow more tails n become 9 tail monsters lik sem1's classmates ...
anw ... wednesday is sophia's birthday ... haha ... she's one of the few who looks no different from the first few weeks ...
n things chnged alort in the class alrdy ... anw ... yesterday , super tired , run to stadium , sgo to gym workout , den play basketball ... this time , i more solo liao ... den i shoot one last ball in the first match against adults ... which is my flashback n a lay up ...
den did a flashback lay up again at the first ball of the second match ... wahahaha ...
sianster .. jux wan to live life hpyily wif a second half bt sadly , dun have any
plying basketball on 3:51 PM
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
WWE lunatic ...
for the past few days , have been a back to wrestling idiot , been watching clips of goldberg , rey mysterio and bobby lashley ...
goldberg is jux wrestling god la ... he's spear is the most painful one i've ever seen ... the jackhammer is nice as well ...
he has the speed , durability and the strength , enough to be the best ...
Bobby lashley , has the speed and strength , and he dominates wif he's dominator ... if the opponent is huge , he will hesitate no more wif a spear ...
rey mysterio is jux too fast for u , he is the high flyer of the wwe .. thee proud cruiser weight division wrestler who attain the world heavyweight champ .... wow ...
den , saturday , played basketball wif leslie they all , den played wif L ... n taught him hw to play basketball , bt he nt humble person la ... so was lucky i didn't teach too much ... bt enough for hiim to be a more advanced player la ... .
den it's lik played freestyle wif some guys ... wohoo ...
sunday , played 5 on 5 tt time , wif te wei team up , played v gd lor ... he's scoring is gd , n i find tt my speed is improving bt stamina still low ... mayb cux of frequent injuries ... haix ...
tt's all for nw ... anw ... listened to gundam seed destiny's reason , n tt lyric came back into my mind , the further apart we r , the closer i feel to u , loneliness turns strength when i think of u ... wonder hw she is alrdy .... it's lik going one continent apart ... lol ...no la ... exagerrating nia ... actually is one area apart , guess she gt a "him" alrdy barhx =( (sobbers)
anw ... teng hui was quite approving about facing mars , which will be our first friendly match . That's a very good spirit , wif aason , yuan li , teng hui , zi hao , yong sheng , aloy , michael , zhi hui and kelvin ard . especially the first four , we r nt afraid of anything ....
anw ... had flashbacks of the kelvin incident ... omg ... tt day was tragic ... though it was a pure accident from what others said , bt i have to blame noone , bt myself , cause i caused kelvin to chase me ... during that ghost festival last yr ... i knew smth was wrong n i didn't stop ...
smtimes i hope i had the urge nt to let himm chase after me .. he's shoe , so coincidently no friction , n who in the blue hell can run faster den him ? there ain't no brakin ... wif he's speed , i wonder hw i can stop after i strt running ... n tt's y ... tt incident , nearly caused he's life miserable .. i was lik stabbing a knife on my own twin brother ... (alort of ppl say me n kelvin look alike ... bt of cux he more handsome la )
evry yr ghost festival , smth will happen to me ... i wonder when will it stop ? ever since tt time , evrything chnged ... made me had fear of lunar seventh month ...
n things in class gt worse when i thought it is better ... evryone in the class kip thinkin i lik another classmate ... ok , i admit i admire her , bt nt to the extend of lik ... i still jux treat her as a good fren ..
n teng hui n yuan li sure know this ... there is noone in this world right now who can replace "her"
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jux hope misunderstands dissolve .. anw ... came to think of it ... after me n her broke , it is about one yr exactly alrdy ... time really flies ... omg ...
though this feeling sux , bt it is really a big scar in my heart tt can nv heal ... anw ... shall sign off ... bb
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