Tuesday, September 12, 2006
give it up...hais...shud i ???
den it's lik after skool...went 2 west mall den wif samuel,toured around n chi chat...it was really nice...waste mi time away...
den at nite...chat on fone wif her 4 a couple of hrs...it was really gd...at least it's better den chatting wif some ppl bahx...bt den ...i think she's probably bored of it all ...haix...msn gt faults...evryone can't online...
this morning...was late...bt lucky wasn't late 4 skool...ss...
it was difficult 4 mi ...den it's lik went hm..pack miself up n went bck again...
den after doin mi art...went 2 canteen 2 chat wif cheng en ,aloy,fontaine n cally...
lolx...real life can't tok 2 her de...she really v wanna find smth 2 quarrel bout...later ppl think v compatible den die...(no wonder tacy say tt...)
omg...
bt den ...anyway...noone cares...it doesn't really mean anything...anyone can b compatible as long as their character when mix 2gether can cuz spark...which the character can chng de...doesn't sty wif anyone 4eva...
den she n jiahui n fontaine lik urging mi 2 sty n wait 4 amanda...i admit i was wanting 2 ...bt den after some great thoughts...i dun think it will make a difference...she will b pressing her fone...
bt in the end they all leaving den the time was juz rite...amanda came bck wif her group of frenx...
den was forced 2 sit at the round table wif em ...haix...wad upsets mi is tt she keep lookin at her fone n sms...n if i nt wrong...it's no doubt...kel bahx...haix...
hate it...2 sit down there n do nth...was still sad cuz she can't go c monkey wif mi ...bt den try 2 pull a smile...
didn't wan ppl 2 noe mi inner side...juz lik SAI...haix
bt deep inside mi...mi heart alrdy started 2 shed ...i dunno y she treat it as i wasn't there at all...den wad was stead all about???
or shud i say...wad did she define stead as???treating the person as an invisible person n oni treat him as alive when he's online???
haix...flashbcks came bckk.... it all oni happened 2 mi...aloy,teng hui
,kel,kife,anton,evryone else...she treat em all equally...chatting wif em wif joyous mood...bt y when she face mi...she juz didn't say anything n walk away lik i was invisible???
it's lik we r worse den even hw she treat her classmate...really felt miserable bout it...
haix...am i even worse den a dog???
haix...wanna get her out of mi head ...y muz she treat mi lik an invisible cloak???
it's nt in a harry potter world...hais...
went bck hm...den online...haix...had quarrel wif her...it's all mi fault...y muz i bring it out...haix...bt den really v ...haix...if strangers c...hu would have thought we r stead...???
haix...i really dun lik this...bt in the end...cally told mi smth which knock mi sense bck...
den i apologize 2 her wif sincerity...in the end...disappointed wif her reply...haix....
wish 2 ask her when will she treat mi really lik a stead????
haix...
ying wei wo fei chang zai hu,suo yi cai hai pa shi qu ...
really wish she uds hw i feel bout her...it's really the 1st time i feel i love smone tt much bahx...haix...
really wish 2 drip mi blood n rite her a letter of blood...bt 4 her case...mayb she will feel disgusting instead....
wish i can hug her n cry instantly...haix...really wish she can treat mi lik a stead...
gtg lerhx...sry reader 4 late posting...buaixxx...gd luck 2 ya....
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