Wednesday, September 13, 2006
hais...dun even noe wad i doin
i juz find tt ...i'm completely invisible was bad...haix...
2dae morning...as usual...went 2 her hse dwnstairs wait...
den walk 2 skool...was extremely quiet 2dae...den i proved mi observation correct...if i dun ask her anything...den there is no conversation at all...n even when i ask ...the ans she give is oni one word...
haix....
i wish i could chat wif her...at least ...juz lik hw she chat wif teng hui they all...haix...y muz she treat mi lik hollow man???haix...
i juz wish tt she can tok 2 mi n all tt...dun ignore mi ...i dun mind goin out wif alort of girls...dun mind waiting 20 min evry morning...bt i dun wish her 2 ignore mi...haix...
den the pratical ...was difficult...omg...shud say all exams r difficult 2 mi ...haix...
haix...i wanna cry sia...when at the music rm...wanna hide one corner n cry...bt den the 4e4 gang sit beside mi...all of em ...n anyway...juz one note...i'm nt in 4E4 gang anymore...
i nt as handsome,smart,cool,cute n clever as all of em ... evryone of em is so attractive ...nt fit 2 b in it...
den it's lik...after skool...go retrieve mi fone frm cally...in the meanwhile aiting...taught joseph some tips on defending n striking...
den it's lik...haix...go eat wif joseph...den go walk wif him n all tt...noticed y so many pl say he nerd...this is the last i can do 4 the 4E4 gang...help it's member 2 b better ...
omg...teach him hw 2 walk stand n smile...basic postures la...bt which is wad he was lacking of...
den i dunno ...bt den cally say they all waiting 4 mi at canteen...den i rush bck lerhx...haix...when i run...felt lik cryin...wasn't really hpy whole day ...bt when i face joseph cally n fontaine...i had 2 force a smile...n oso jk wif em n quarrel wif em 2 distract mi sadness...haix...
wish i can juz lik wad gui ji say...daydream,smile n close mi eyes...den can 4gt her lerhx...haix...the feeling is there...bt den i feel sad thinkin bout her...haix...y muz she treat mi lik i am invisible???
haix...
den i was chatting wif jiahui while fontaine n cally go 4 art club cca briefing...
haix...den after tt...when they come bck...den wanna go hm...bt den saw yuan li...den went wif him 2 play bball....
omg...den on the bus...gt one uncle v rude...den he bang yuan li ...den i v furious la..bt i fake a smile...bt mi eyes diao him lerhx...den i scold vulgar loudly...
i wanna hit tt uncle sia...super guai lan...bt c cally around...den dun wan spoil mi image oso...didn't notice it...i stop mi vulgarity habit a bit lerhx...i mean cut down alot lerhx....
den go play bball...train mi three pointer shot....den play 2 on 2 team wif yuan li...was the playmaker...bt made sm shots...lolx... v nice lorx...one is hook lay up...den the other is three pointer...den the last ball oso scored by mi...it was spectacular...yuan li run pass mi ...den lik screening 4 mi...den i do 5 spin move...even i oso confused miself...den i go n quickly reverse lay up...
omg...den end it...so spectacular larhx...5 spin move den reverse lay...omg...
haix...
den i go eat KFC yet again...den go hm lerhx...
den online...den cally n jia hui ask mi 2 ask amanda if she still love mi...
i really dun dare 2 ask narhx...cuz ...i scared i will b disappointed wif her ans again...haix...mi heart sheds blood...even more den mi limbs...though they gt injured evry day too...
haix...
wish all these will end soon....
wanna train three pointer lerhx...it's wad made mi come all the way here...i rmb tt time play outside team den i was the secondary playmaker n oo the shooter...mi passing n mi shooting made mi came here...cuz of mi fear no one attitude n mi ability 2 distract mi opponent wif mi words...haha....
bt den i will try...2 go bck where i was...bt adding a few lay ups would b fine...of cuz muz b a modified improved version...bt den i oso muz train mi three pointer bahx...mi passing is fine 2 mi anyway...
haix..wish it's all juz a dream ...wake up frm it...sounds ironic rite???if u c one of the previous post,i mention i dun wan wake up frm mi dream...bt nw ...i dread 2 ...haix...i suffering in 18 storey of hell nw...!!!
late lerhx...gotta go...catch ya soon...haha...haix...mi smiles nw r all so fake...can't let others c thru mi...bt fontaine did...
plying basketball on 10:34 PM
