Thursday, January 04, 2007
doubt i could play bball normally anymore...
den ... hais... i nort sure ... if i play again ... will it make us improve the bond between us ... i'm still v v sad ... i can't slp yesterday well ... juz kip crying on my bed i guess... till i doze off
den i played lik 2 hours lik tt den finally lvl 10 ... den become theif...
den went tu play bball wif leslie ... den it's lik ... restless... dun even noe hw 2 play lerhx... the whole ball ... juz ... hais ... mayb is the ball gt's heavier n heavier... i completely flunk ... use 2 handed shooting... juz anyhw throw ... lik trying tu spoil the bckboard... can't even lay up ... legs gt heavier n heavier... hais... wad shud i ever do ...
i really feel lik nort carry on living ...
wad shud i do ???den i lik agitated amanda wif my reply... wad did i done wrong??? hais...
den ... mum kip nagging at me ferr nth ... do i ever counted as a useful existence in this world??? ferr lik decades i've been helpin tu kill legends
n when i reached my limit... i will b kicked aside... tt's my destiny????i juz nid a hug frm someone out there... or some consoling... somthing lik tt... can't i even have those which evryone wished ferr??hais...
wish i wun b juz a loner... n someone will b there ferr me ... one lik her ... cuz i noe ... there's no possibility tt she will fall fer me again ... n tt's the greatest regret of my life ... hais...
plying basketball on 7:46 PM
