Friday, August 17, 2007
afterall , I've been dependant for three long yrs

today , I went to Lam Soon basketball court to play basketball again and find that from these two days' experience , whenever I grab a hold of the ball , I wil prepare for a shot which is smth I did not expect as I thought I would have been that independant especially when I am in a stranger environment ...

I used to play solo , even if it's a 5 on 5 , I will try to drive in myself , create shots for myself and even grabbing rebounds lik helll ... maybe the teammates rely a deal lot on me ... untill I came to know Teng Hui , he demonstrated teamwork to me ..of course , noone loves to c the player getting more than 3/4 of the points scored by the team ... which was wad happened in the past , every shots seemed to involve me , if i do not score , i will be the one passing the ball to the person who shoots , so when ppl comment about the team , it's always a one man team , but when I am with teng hui , it was the opposite situationn , every shots are about him , unless he is off form , where we , as the minor roles , will support him ...

recently , find myself at a loss , I used to be tt independant , n I wish so much that i still possess those skills n abilities , just to mix it with the passing mentality I have now .. Now , every players who play with me will no longer say it's a one man team , I try to be more of a supporting cast , creating scoring opportunities for others and at the same time , score from long distance to confuse the defense of the opponent ...

thus , I find sometime , my skills are deteoriating , though now , I'm nt hated by anyone due to unselfishness on court , but my scoring selection is decreasing ... hope i can one day find out what i should do ...

sometimes , really feel so empty inside too ... when ppl have downfalls , there is always a significant someone to be there , but for my case , I dread for one , but couldn't ...

plying basketball on 12:07 AM

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