yesterday , was plying bball n was having flu n a bit of semi heat stroke ... well ... guess my body is at it's limit ... den ya ... hey ... one shocking news .. yl win me in 1on1 ... lol

n oso ... wasn't plyin well ... n Wan Yi v kb la ... den at nite , i did smth embarassing ... i kneel down on the grass n cry cux we lost when i was subbed in ... felt i dragged it all down again ... bt ... teng calmed me down by saying they r too strong n it ain't my fault bt i nw myself ... i brought the lost ...

i think i m jux nt fit to ply bball wif em ...

den this morning i quarrel wif yl cux we were both plying v rough .. den wanna say sry to him cux i m v v stressed these few days over hw i misused the holiday , over their protest of leslie in the team , over me draggin the team , over personal matters ...

thxfully we didn't rly fight ... sometimes jux wan him to beat me down n kill me so tt we cn perish together

deni ply match wif those old cc pros ,.. cux i nv follow the team to roam ard ... dun wish to drag em down ... den ply till i tired n painful ... cux i nt lik leslie ... he shoot threes outside only ... for myself ... cux i lack confidence in shooting (i can shoot quite well when i'm out of the match ... i swear wif u on tt ) bt i dunno ... i jux scared for evry shot i missed , i might cux the loss ... hmm ... so i take lower risk shots ... bt of cux , it's hard to take low risk shots cux ppl guard u closely n wif more physical contact when u go inside the paint ...

den the shen long bastards keep banging n elbowing me on the face in the last match ... den i heard someone say i v helpless , keep getting blocked ... den the zhi kai who was my yusof ishak senior ... laugh when he blocked me ... so i vowed ... i will score the last ball of tt match in he's face inside the paint ... i wun back off ... n i will leave when i score tt ball ...

well ... it's easier said den done ... bt for whad we were plying , 4 on 4 , winner stays n loser leaves , we've won 10 plus matches alrdy ... n i've been shooting frm ard free throw distance ... which is at mid risk range ... n nw , to go hardcore n high risk , a bit hard ... den the stamford still knee me ... so painful ... bt i endured it ...

den last ball i pass to my teammate (thought i couldn't score the last ball anymore n hence , cnt fulfill tt so called "goal of the match")n i catch the rebound after the missed shot , den i jump again n banks it in , in front of zhi kai ... yo ... prove the doubters wrong ... lol ... den nv rly eat dinner much ...

haix .. jux wish i have someone lik xinyi who will tend to my injuries ... wipe my tears , do evrything to make me feel warmth ...