Monday, June 16, 2008
mux history always repeat? sick n tired of it all
den it's lik ... after sch , raining heavily ... jux suit my mood ... feeling v down ... well ... nt ushing anywhere anyway ... when i come bck to hkncc , was shocked tt it didn't rain at all ...
den i ply bball ... den jia jia oso there ... jia wei oso ... den dunno ... cn say was dominant th whole day ... at least when i put in more effort , we r winning ... especially the full court match ... which i didn't even score a ball n we cn still manage to win 11-3 ... lol ... cool ...
den it's lik ... watch san jin they all ply bball ... n those phillipenes ... is lik watching nba matches without the dunks ... lol ...
hmm ... den it's lik ... whole day nth to b hpy abt ... except one okok girl somehow come n chat wif me ... tt's all tt is more hpy ... den ... leslie come use hand knock my head n stil say is xiao zhang knock one ... i straight away knock him bck n he say pain den say whad i cnt take jokes ... yarh ... i cnt take any jokes ... n i cnt stand u anymore ... jux fk ur life off ... it's nt rly lik we nid u as a fren or teammate ... u cn jux jolly well gt out of my sight ..
n i dunno ... bt i feel lik jux ... dun care bout anything except studies n bball frm nw on ... i should jux continue to b alone ... tt's more happy den trying to care bout ppl's grandma business .. i mean bout ppl's personal prob ...
anw ... evrytime lik someone oso same thing ... the girl will b wif someone during the period when i wanna confess ... den the girl will gt abit neglected n treat me lik a soft toy n talk to me ...
ain't it convenient ? dump the doll away when ur prince is within ur sight again ... the doll will den gt even more unoticed cux of the dirts covering it ... well ... at the v least , bball will nt jux dump me ... n i cn dump it instead(bt i didn't )
sometimes i jux missed the moment i have wif those more notable ones ... huimin , ming fen , yee teng , n of course , most imptly , xin yi ... especially to the first three , i didn't treasure them well ... n i dun deserve their feelings for me ... at least at tt time ... if i am to say the reason i hate leslie was becux of he's flirting , i must jolly well hate myself as well ... though there is some sort of difference ... however , xinyi , i did treasure her , bt mayb our distance is too big or she have too high an aim for studies ...
well ... in the past , i enjoyed myself ... nt caring bout the girls' feelings ... more self centered .. n nw it's my turn to b the one alone ... n it's even worse ... nw i have a curse as retribution n then , mayb , a v long time later which i duno when , there might come along a girl who will break my curse for me ... who knws?
plying basketball on 11:43 PM
