Monday, July 06, 2009
Carefree ?

So the part abt nt being able to post pictures is correct n occurs to me too ..

hmm , for the past week , have some sort of discoveries ..

i feel lik i sort of live bck to when I was 13-14 years old , where I was independant , all alone , as well as after Os , bt at least tt period gt gf so nt counted ..

hmmm , sometimes , it takes being lonely to feel tt u r nt lonely i guess , I thought I've no much ppl who will talk to me n all tt after i leave my best friends' circle and also my so called new best friend ..

bt it didn't seemed lik tt too .. i find tt as long as u r alive , there will b ppl who still wanna b ur fren , though nt close , bt at least they wan to have a certain closeness with you , n i cn feel them getting closer to me alrdy , this close the gap between the relationship ppl have with me ..

anw , bball wise , though nt rly doing well especially with the current shooting slump , bt I guess when my mood is there , intensity is high , I'm doing fairly well .. n to further improve , I'm trying to improve on vertical , c if cn or nt ..

anw , to say the sad thing , I thought LOA was over n I finally will b getting some well deserved grades when my LOA will be extended .. I would rather they close the sch as a holiday rather den having it working as usual and jux eliminate a certain group of ppl ..

also , another sad thing , my muscle stretched when cramped last saturday , i mean during last saturday of june .. rly affected my shooting all tt alot .. n also , fall down stairs yesterday while typing sms ask iggy go down the court meet , plus gt one part of the fall my knee collided against the so caled sharp edge of one of the stair .. pain till dunno hw ..

aww , my world has rly run out of electricity , lucky gt bball , it's lik a candle out of darkness and it help me lit up several other candles filled with friends who do not give me up ..

hw i hope i cn jux live off bball , bball cn feed me , cn love me , evrything .. bt well , love me ? i guess it does , bt if i were to love it as much , practice probably 100 times more harder in the past , probably bball cn rly feed me ..

if only u were there to fix my switch n lit my world up again ..

plying basketball on 2:37 AM

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